Will people figure out the reason for your CTB?

[Crazy4u]

More than 50% of people who CTB don't leave a suicide note. When I CTB, few people may be able to "guess" the reason/(s) for my CTB. What about you?

 

[peepo]

If I dont they will be completely lost on why I did it. lmao

 

[Ta555]

Yeah everyone knows I have health issues. I'll leave a note too.

 

[downndone]

I will leave several letters for people that care about me but I will not explain why I am CTB. It would only cause more hurt. I just want certain people to know that they were important to me and that it's not on them.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

They have heard but not listened, not that it matters. Note is to try to ease their pain a bit.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not care how people react after my death, I will be gone by that point. Even if I tried to explain in a note, they would never be able to fully understand. I do not need to justify my reasons for ctb anyway, I have the right to exit at a time of my own choosing.

 

[Hirokami]

Everyone in my life knows I have depression, so they'd probably figure it has something to do with that. It also doesn't help that most of those people know I have suicidal ideation. Though, even fewer people would know the finer details.

 

[D&D]

Like everything else in human life - there is the 'inside' and the 'outside' story. The 'outside' story is what I have written in my letter. A peaceful, soothing narrative for the benefit of those few that have known me. The 'inside' story is what each faces it alone. Neither words can hold it nor others understand it. Until they themselves arrive at the last station. Such are the roads of humanity.

 

[back_to_oblivion]

Well my family knows that I was treated for depression and the doctor knows so even if I don't leave a note the first thing they'll probably think of is that. I had my doubts about leaving a note but I've decided that I will do it, I think it will provide more closure for them if I do and hopefully take away the questions they'll have. I'm still figuring out what to write in the note, it's difficult. To be honest, I don't know how to write a suicide note. I have prepared everything, my method is ready for me to use at any time I want, but my suicide note isn't finished.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

If they don't im coming back to haunt them and constantly play annoying anime music on all their electronic devices.

 

[tieiwi]

They'll create some bullshit reason that suits them since they don't want to face the truth. Adults around me have a tendency to believe whatever they want and not care about others feelings. I couldn't care less if anyone figures out or not, I'll be dead anyway.

 

[Kobusu]

I think they're already expecting it. I wouldn't be surprised if my family hasn't already prepared for the worst at this rate.

 

[Crazy4u]

Wow I'm surprised! most members responded yes and some will leave a note. I saw many interviews about families of people who CTB and they almost always say they had NO idea. I find it hard to believe especially if they live in the same house.

@GenesAndEnvironment I'm not surprised. Suicide and mental health issues are not taken seriously by many people

@Hirokami I'm pretty surprised and sorry to hear that. I would think people who know would try to talk to you about it.

@D&D I feel this deeply. The outside is probably simple and easy to understand story. Inside is so different

@Bootleg Astolfo I like the attitude :)

@tieiwi same here. They may create a stupid reason and somehow blame me for it

 

[Hirokami]

I'm pretty surprised and sorry to hear that. I would think people who know would try to talk to you about it.

They have but their reactions are mixed. They know I have depression, so they think suicidal ideation is just a normal part of the illness. So as long as I don't try anything, they figure it's nothing to worry about yet. The ones who know more tend to get frustrated with and guilt trip me until I learned to be quiet about it. Though, I can't blame them. I know they just want to help me and are mad that they can't do much, so they lash out at me instead. It also doesn't help that they've been brainwashed by society's shallow pro-life views.

 

[Pen>Sword]

I voted for "Maybe" because I get drunk pretty easily and may confess it to people under such state.

 

[Z-bar]

In my case they will chalk it up to mental health,or drug addiction. If I didn't leave a note they would think it accidental as my ctb method will be with narcotics.
I've only expressed my suicidal thoughts to One family member and the result of that was the rest of the family thinking I'm attention seeking, or manipulating.
It was just the only person I felt safe opening up to. Regret that.
The only thing I want my notes to get across is that this was not on impulse, I have thought Long and hard, through good times and bad. It's my right to choose my ending.it doesnt have to be sad..
When I've finally had enough, just give my ashes a salute and dump me in nature where I belong.

 

[Illcryaboutitlater]

Im going to tell my love in a letter, im still writing it. Ive said it to her a bunch already so it will kinda punch her in the face " i did everything i was supposed to do, and inspite of my efforts nothing changed"

 

[D&D]

I've only expressed my suicidal thoughts to One family member and the result of that was the rest of the family thinking I'm attention seeking, or manipulating.

This sadness me greatly ... it stands to show how widespread and how lethal suicide stigmatization really is. The invalidating 'attention seeking/manipulating' mantra is used as an easy, convenient escape route so that there is no need to ever ask why this person is even thinking about suicide let alone why it is somehow wrong to 'seek attention' when one is hurting. No wonder many, if not most, that suffer the most do not tell.

 

[Crazy4u]

@Z-bar That is very sad. At least the family member didn't ask you to PROVE you are serious (sarcasm)
I like your idea about explaining that the decision is not impulse. Prolifers and mental health professionals like to say suicide is an impulse decision

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I've been trying to off myself for almost 20 years, it won't be a surprise or mystery.

 

[Thankyoufortoday]

It would probably be a shock... I hide everything very well and everyone thinks I've been getting better this past year

 

[Silenos]

Pretty much everyone I know knows I'm suicidal and to a certain degree why, but to drive the point home I will definitely make a public post somewhere letting everyone know that MY MOM IS TO BLAME FOR MOST OF THIS.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

There will be no question as to why. I want people to know.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Yeah, I've made it pretty clear that I will absolutely kill myself at some point next year because I refuse to settle for anything less than a blatantly improbable fantasy life with a soulmate. Many have tried to give me advice on how to reconcile this but ultimately it always comes across as condescending, contradictory, and/or confusing.

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

If I left a note it would be very bitter. There doesn't seem any point to that. I take all the blame blah whatever.

 

[Natty]

it won't be a surprise to my wife or my father. i think everyone else will be pretty shocked though.

 

[LingeringUnreal]

I don't think it'd shock anyone, but there wouldn't be one like, singular reason for it or anything. My note would be strictly utilitarian and just talk about preferences for funeral stuff, like wanting to be cremated.

The urge to include grievances is strong, but not necessary. Not like I'm gonna see their reaction.

 

[nopointofliving]

I pretend to be sane with people, and they think I'm okay. They would be shocked when they knew I committed suicide.

 

[princessdepression]

I think the only shock that would come from my death is that I actually did it.

 

[Crazy4u]

@nopointofliving I am the same way. I try to pretend that I am okay but I think few people may tell I am not okay