Will likely do partial suspension tonight

[DyingAbusedSoul]

I have read through some threads here and i just want to put my feelers out. I fear not getting the knot correct. Says to use a slipknot, but I'm not sure that's entirely the best method for the type of rope I have. It's not circular but flat, it's a rope used for hammocks.

I am going to out a lubricant on the rope... I tested my weight against the rope and I should pass out pretty quick. I just don't and I mean really don't want to fail.

my fears:

1. Knot is on incorrectly and will almost certainly ease up and allow blood back in, which leads me to fear number
2. I am going to lean against the rope in a way for it to be taught and my body against it, but want to understand the risks and if there is a best way to position myself?

I really really really don't want ti fail. This isn't a cry for help. I need to be successful so I'm trying to cover my bases.

also when it comes to partial hangings failing is there anything that I should be aware of?

thanks for the support. I'm going to leave this for a few hours but I'm working up the courage to do what i need to do

 

[DyingAbusedSoul]

Okay so I haven't done it yet... I made a few trial runs and everything seems to be in order but I need to get shitfaced drunk I think.... I just need to be fully committed and partial suspension is definitely showing signs of SI especially with oxygen... I can tell that will be a struggle I will need to overcome. I'm going to need to fight directly against the desire to breath more so than the desire to live really.... but I could do it with some booze... I will get alcohol tomorrow and really go for it... it's 3am here and nothing is open... I'll post again here when I'm ready to go through with if. A forewarning that future me might be plastered drunk.

 

[DyingAbusedSoul]

Are you male or female? How tall and how heavy are you?

Male 5 11, probably weigh about 185 lbs

 

[WornOutLife]

Whatever happens, wish you lots of love and peace.

Hugs,

Matt

 

[FuneralCry]

If this is what you want then I wish you the best. Nobody should have to suffer in this life.

 

[Conflict3d]

Wish you the best with whatever happens
Make sure this is what you want 100%