Will ctb soon

[carfemtanyl]

My best friend's birthday is tomorrow and she will celebrate on Sunday. I will go there and ctb when I'm back home.
I've really tried nearly everything there is to get better but nothing worked and I can't keep going anymore.
I plan to OD on the opioid + benzo combination.
Wish me luck.
I also have KN as a backup although I don't think I will need it

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good luck! I hope you find peace

 

[darksouls]

best of luck, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[Alexandra_]

Good luck to you and all the best

 

[Z0002]

Hugs I hope you'll find peace

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering.

 

[WoodsGK]

I hope you find peace~~

 

[carfemtanyl]

tomorrow is the birthday and maybe also the ctb day although I might get home after midnight
I'm kinda nervous, first time dying lol, but I think my benzos will calm me down enough

well it's not my first time dying, I've failed before, but I don't remember much of last time since I also took a bunch of benzos before

 

[Redhand5]

Having a plan is good, gives you something to look forward to.
Happy trails, I'll see you over the horizon.

 

[carfemtanyl]

okay I'm back home now and I'm even more nervous now
I've taken 2.5mg of lorazepam a few minutes ago to calm myself so I can proceed with my plan

 

[Aflame5926]

no shame to back out tho.

but good luck and have a good journey if you do commit to it through

 

[carfemtanyl]

the lorazepam has calmed me enough I guess, it's time for the 30mg of meto
okay nvm I'm aborting for now

 

[Redhand5]

the lorazepam has calmed me enough I guess, it's time for the 30mg of meto
okay nvm I'm aborting for now

Any way you want to cut it, it's still your cake :)
Don't feel bad about changing plans, don't feel bad at all.

 

[carfemtanyl]

I will try again today, this time without lorazepam but with zopiclone instead
lorazepam made me feel kinda weird
okay also zopiclone makes me feel this weird so I'll abort again
god I'm such a failure