No!!
Bad idea. It will not do anything but get you out on a psych hold. You'll risk bodily damage & be seen as a danger to yourself.
Psych meds these days are relatively safe short term. Your plan will fail.


I thought so I just thought it would be enough for the good sleep

….. I guess not …. Jumping would be an option but the survival instinct hits me and I start to feel physically scared , but mentally , mentally I'm gone.
Goddam survival instinct, I wish there was an option to just go to the other side for one day just to see what it's like , if it's any more peaceful than here , if the suffering of the earth is gone. If hell really exists , if nothing is out there. God I wish I could silence my thoughts , I wish I was just a tree or a bird. I wish for a simpler existence.