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jengablocks

jengablocks

im jengablocks
Jan 30, 2026
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it's just different brains i think, different people can experience the exact same stimuli and have drastically different responses to it based on nature or the nurture that develops that nature. some of the antidepressants that have worked for me make bad experiences "slide off" and not bother me as much, whereas when i'm off of them the same bad things just outright feel worse to experience and stick to me for longer.

the sentiment of intelligence correlating to despair isn't so off the mark either, i think. other animals as far as we can tell don't really have the capacity for excessive self-criticism. the ability to look at your circumstances and actions and analyze them through an emotionally articulate lens can be destructive. i've heard an analogy before like: an animal in the wild doesn't unsuccessfully forage for food and start thinking they're an irredeemable failure, they just continue trying to forage for food.

and the two concepts together can spiral into something really bad. i think that's why psychiatry and therapy together are the recommended first-line form of treatment for mental health issues, the former aims to lessen the intensity of the bad feelings while the latter stops you from spiraling with those bad feelings. they're obviously not perfect, though
 
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bobsacamano

bobsacamano

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Feb 11, 2026
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i just got around to reading it all. i will probably go back to reading it again. i really liked it. especially the attachment and human yearning part. i resonate with those ideas. thank u for recommending me that 💓


no, you really did answer it in a way ❤️‍🩹
You're kind. You raised a great question. I guess if we had an easier time seeing what positives there are in all of this, we could cope better. For me seeing the positive equals saying "it could be worse" and well that's not super satisfying.

Best wishes.
 
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violetforever

violetforever

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Dec 24, 2025
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it's just different brains i think, different people can experience the exact same stimuli and have drastically different responses to it based on nature or the nurture that develops that nature. some of the antidepressants that have worked for me make bad experiences "slide off" and not bother me as much, whereas when i'm off of them the same bad things just outright feel worse to experience and stick to me for longer.

the sentiment of intelligence correlating to despair isn't so off the mark either, i think. other animals as far as we can tell don't really have the capacity for excessive self-criticism. the ability to look at your circumstances and actions and analyze them through an emotionally articulate lens can be destructive. i've heard an analogy before like: an animal in the wild doesn't unsuccessfully forage for food and start thinking they're an irredeemable failure, they just continue trying to forage for food.

and the two concepts together can spiral into something really bad. i think that's why psychiatry and therapy together are the recommended first-line form of treatment for mental health issues, the former aims to lessen the intensity of the bad feelings while the latter stops you from spiraling with those bad feelings. they're obviously not perfect, though
oh i really like your reply 💓
 
SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
40
I really thought that we're only alive due to our animalistic instincts. If we're more inclined in listening to our human rationale, we will all have killed ourselves.

Is it really coping if it's ingrained in our system to just keep waking up? 🤔
 
glitterpvppy

glitterpvppy

Member
Feb 11, 2026
55
I guess people are just dumb, to be honest, I take pride in suicidality, I see it as intellectually honest and brave, it needs reflection to examine our instincts and what appear to be obvious
Ignorance is bliss
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Mage
Dec 24, 2025
560
Ignorance is bliss
its the truest quote ever. i dont know if id go as far as calling people dumb lol.
I think the average person is definitely passively suicidal.
i asked someone how he thinks he will die. he said liver disease bc he doesn't plan to ever stop drinking. functioning alcoholic. i feel like thats very passively suicidal…
 
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SASU-KE

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Nov 26, 2025
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i asked someone how he thinks he will die. he said liver disease bc he doesn't plan to ever stop drinking. functioning alcoholic. i feel like thats very passively suicidal…
I'll never understand this. I asked myself the same question. Last year I was drinking a lot for a short period of time of around 6 months . And I knew it made my life worse and I knew what lay in store for me long term if I continued.

Drinking is just amazing. I danced to any music. I used to find all scenes in movies and TV shows hilarious. The next day things wouldn't hit me the same way when I was sober.

But I would also a few hours later cry howling 😑

But the thing that I hated most was the way I acted. There was a certain recklessness in the things I said and did. Drinking takes away you from yourself and replaces it with something else.Dilutes you,makes you lesser than you were.
I don't want to ever go back.
 
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grizzlycamel

grizzlycamel

The idiot
Feb 16, 2026
11
i hope i don't come off as super conspiratorial but i think a good part of it is the way society tells us life should be. Where we have to be working and involved in it, not living our own lives doing the things we want to. So they tell us if you're sad you could go out for a drink, spend some money, buy your happiness for just a moment so that you forget about what you were upset about. They'll prescribe you things so you stick around longer, but the underlying reason why or what you really do want isn't in their interest and benefit so why would they let you. Idk I'm basically saying that the world needs you to do things for others and not for yourself so they just make lies about what happiness in life looks like. You should be happy with the way things are.

Even me. I'm living with my partner, have a job, we talked about getting married and the future. Yet the government isn't doing great, my partner flip flops about marriage, at times doesn't take our relationship that seriously, he's emotionally immature. He's negatively impacted my life but yet I should be happy because this man "loves me" I'm sorry I feel like I'm rambling on but I've seen what you've been saying since I was a kid.

I want to do the things I want to do, a lot of what drives my misery is society's structures and doings. I don't want to have to work, I don't want to worry about finances, I don't want to be treated like trash. I do like doing a job, I have hobbies I like doing, but I don't like forgoing my wants for someone else's needs. That's how I've changed my perspective over the years. You find things you like doing, they're not really to live for but at times if found actual enjoyment and pay off. Maybe you might have something similar?
 
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violetforever

violetforever

Mage
Dec 24, 2025
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But the thing that I hated most was the way I acted. There was a certain recklessness in the things I said and did. Drinking takes away you from yourself and replaces it with something else.Dilutes you,makes you lesser than you were.
i think thats what the person i was talking about likes about drinking 😳 its sad to watch. years of it worsening his behavior so maybe it really will never end. im beyond happy u stopped though! its the worst thing ever.
i hope i don't come off as super conspiratorial but i think a good part of it is the way society tells us life should be. Where we have to be working and involved in it, not living our own lives doing the things we want to. So they tell us if you're sad you could go out for a drink, spend some money, buy your happiness for just a moment so that you forget about what you were upset about. They'll prescribe you things so you stick around longer, but the underlying reason why or what you really do want isn't in their interest and benefit so why would they let you. Idk I'm basically saying that the world needs you to do things for others and not for yourself so they just make lies about what happiness in life looks like. You should be happy with the way things are.

Even me. I'm living with my partner, have a job, we talked about getting married and the future. Yet the government isn't doing great, my partner flip flops about marriage, at times doesn't take our relationship that seriously, he's emotionally immature. He's negatively impacted my life but yet I should be happy because this man "loves me" I'm sorry I feel like I'm rambling on but I've seen what you've been saying since I was a kid.

I want to do the things I want to do, a lot of what drives my misery is society's structures and doings. I don't want to have to work, I don't want to worry about finances, I don't want to be treated like trash.
i agree with everything u said. the structure of society is what makes me miserable too and theres really no way out of it alive.
I do like doing a job, I have hobbies I like doing, but I don't like forgoing my wants for someone else's needs. That's how I've changed my perspective over the years. You find things you like doing, they're not really to live for but at times if found actual enjoyment and pay off. Maybe you might have something similar?
i think i will like the job i have too when i finish my major but i dont think it will be enough. i dont see the point in living for things that i only like doing, not that actually improve my situation and mental suffering. some things about my life will never be improved. i dont like seeing people i care about not caring for themselves either.
 
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