Why is my mind hesitating?!

[bellaisdonewithlife]

It's weird that I knew what items I wanted to buy today to attempt with charcoal CO, I have all the tabs open for the items online at the store I was gonna go to in order to get all of them, but I hesitated.

Is this that damn survival instinct or like what is this fear from. I think I can't do it without a partner. I can always grab them tomorrow if I think this through. I'm off to smoke some hookah. Haven't had it in several years.

 

[saintleftbygod]

natural instint to not avoid danger and avoid death

 

[bellaisdonewithlife]

natural instint to not avoid danger and avoid death

Ugh. What the heck am I doing on this freaking rock in the middle of outer space. I don't understand how someone can have lifelong pleasure circuit issues from childhood and end up being stuck just going through the motions their whole life. I hope I find a partner soon.

 

[cbtvvxxvvv]

def survival instinct. there are some substances you can take to bypass that completely

 

[KnightOfSwords]

Same, bro. I was waiting and waiting, had sn in my shopping cart but hesitated to purchase. Untill one day when I decided I need to do it, all sn was gone from that site completely. I guess it was because of some stupid rumors about accidental intoxications, and site removed everything remotely suspicious. I regret not buying it in advance.

 

[The Dead Line]

We all have our ancestors DNA that designed to survive as long as possible because we are part of the animal kingdom, however, it is very hard to break this feeling.

 

[persistentheartache]

Our bodies are hardwired for survival. it's completely normal to struggle to CTB even if you have every reason to. suicide statistics make CTB sound easier than it really is. It's difficult to CTB. For anyone. Your body WILL fight you on it. It's not easy to die. despite how it seems.

 

[uselessmanz]

def survival instinct. there are some substances you can take to bypass that completely

Like what???

 

[hurts2b]

We can't tell you that. It's the kind of question that demands self reflection on your part.

It could be survival instinct, it could be something more. Only you can tell that for yourself.