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Cashewmilk

Cashewmilk

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Mar 10, 2020
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I can't believe how hard it is to die, it's totally fucked up. People and animals die and fall like dominoes every second all over the world. I get so annoyed when I hear of a highschool kid dying from drug use. Really? So what am I? Superwoman? I pumped myself full of cocaine/molly/alcohol constantly in highschool and nothing, not even a hospital trip.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
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The simple answer would be it's due to our SI (aka Survival Instinct or some refer to it as Self Preservation), meaning that no matter how much our mind and how we wish we were dead, there is something subconsciously that stops us at just about every corner from completing the action that would result in death. For example, if one was standing on a tall ledge, we would freeze in fear and our body becomes stiff because it knows that if jumped, it would result in serious injuries and/or death. Another example would be when someone is about to pull the trigger, no matter how calm they are, there is always something that interferes with it and/or gets in the way of completing the action that would result in death.

There are ways to get around it and it would vary from person to person as no two individuals are the same. Some people take drugs, drink a bit of alcohol, and/or meditate, prepare themselves mentally over the course of days, weeks, months (or whatever length of time) in order to overcome their SI, even if temporary, just enough to go through with the attempt. Another thing is that if the pain and fear of living surpasses the pain and fear of death, then one would have an 'easier' time overcoming one's SI.
 
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Cashewmilk

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The simple answer would be it's due to our SI (aka Survival Instinct or some refer to it as Self Preservation), meaning that no matter how much our mind and how we wish we were dead, there is something subconsciously that stops us at just about every corner from completing the action that would result in death. For example, if one was standing on a tall ledge, we would freeze in fear and our body becomes stiff because it knows that if jumped, it would result in serious injuries and/or death. Another example would be when someone is about to pull the trigger, no matter how calm they are, there is always something that interferes with it and/or gets in the way of completing the action that would result in death.

There are ways to get around it and it would vary from person to person as no two individuals are the same. Some people take drugs, drink a bit of alcohol, and/or meditate, prepare themselves mentally over the course of days, weeks, months (or whatever length of time) in order to overcome their SI, even if temporary, just enough to go through with the attempt. Another thing is that if the pain and fear of living surpasses the pain and fear of death, then one would have an 'easier' time overcoming one's SI.
That's a great insight. I feel like I lost my SI a long time ago. My fear is actually surviving the attempt and not dying, that's where most of my fear comes from. Not dying and going through excruciating worse pain than being alive. I used to be in a lot of emotional pain, I would cry and be angry. But nowadays my depression is different. I'm just exhausted, and tired and annoyed.

These days I have no fear or no resistance towards a risky experience. For example if I was with a drunk driver and he was driving super fast and wreckless, it doesn't scare me anymore, of course I repeatedly ask for them to slow down but lol they never listen, it's more for the sake of wildlife crossing the street I am worried about. Or if I was drowning, I probably wouldn't fight. I have risky experiences often, if I've taken too many drugs and my heart starts feeling tight and my left arm has some cramping, I no longer worry about it. Even when I was slightly manic and feeling happier and made some big changes in regards to my addiction and house cleaning, I was still ready to die whenever the chance happened.
 
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St. Jimmy

St. Jimmy

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May 3, 2020
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I've had the same thought. Why is it so easy for others to die--especially accidentally--yet it's so difficult for those who actually want to die?

It's cruel irony, is what that is.
 
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SpottedPanda

SpottedPanda

I'm all about coffee and cigarettes
Jul 24, 2019
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I think it comes down to evolution. We evolved to survive, and the strongest do. We wouldn't have made it nearly as far in the world if dying was so easy, as living organisms.

And the cases you hear about accidental deaths aren't usually the norm, hence why they're considered newsworthy.
 
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I think it comes down to evolution. We evolved to survive, and the strongest do. We wouldn't have made it nearly as far in the world if dying was so easy, as living organisms.

And the cases you hear about accidental deaths aren't usually the norm, hence why they're considered newsworthy.

I think I'm stronger than the majority of the population because I've put my body through extreme abuse and I'm still alive and well, albeit a few annoying health issues and probably black lungs but still kicking!
 
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