Why is it so difficult to accept yourself?

[Parnate]

I want to accept myself but just can't. I tried so many antidepressants, therapy, yoga , meditation etc. The only time I could feel self acceptance was while on the mao inhibitors parnate but that didn't last long and here I am.
Wish I could be comfortable within my body and gender. I am an effeminate gay man which only worsens the things.
I hate god for making me this way.

 

[mysticatedwine]

i also hate god for making my body and gender this way. big manly looking man with the worst suicidal gender dysphoria

i'm with you

 

[Unknown21]

Because even your own self was not chosen by you and was imposed upon you... Even many of the things that you had no hand in and that you went through, especially in your childhood, formed a part of you that will never leave you.

 

[meiherasayuri]

i am don´t perfect that's
I don't accept myself

 

[FoxSauce]

I dont accept myself how I truly am. Not beacuse of gender or anything like that.

I hate my personality and how I look in general. I wish I could be pretty, Im well aware that being pretty can be suggestive but I feel unattractive and just gross with myself.

Ik is NOT the same as gender dysphoria or anything which I bet is much worse but still.

(Sorry if this is hella cringe)