why I'm planning on killing myself

[Ghost girl]

i'm not going to be smart enough to do graphic design jobs, because i'm not smart enough to do any job. I'm mentally retarded and will fail at everything in life. my talents ae useless, i'm great at art, but graphic design is more than just art, I don't know why I even bother trying. When I fail, I'm going to kill myself via carbon monoxide and pills and i'm going to do it somewhere where I am comfortable. I was thinking of doing it at this beautiful park by my house called meadowbrook. I'm not sure if I should give things a chance to work out or not. I know they won't so I'm just going to wait for things to get bad again or for my parents to kick me out and then i'll do it.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Can you do something easier? I'm planning on doing some brain-dead shit myself. Won't even manage that, most likely.

 

[Midgardsorm]

If you don't want to do 3d modelling you can just work with 2d modelling, you just need Photoshop and that's basically it.

Or you can draw things like comics, hand drawing is a thing, a friend of mine makes her living drawing and painting.

Just know that things are not so complicated once you get a bit of understanding of the software you want to use.

Careful with the co poisoning, if you need to go, pick a more reliable way, otherwise, you might end up in a ward.

Don't assume you will fail at everything on life.
Maybe you should try it first. You may be surprised by your own capacity ^^

I wish you the best.


... @GenesAndEnvironment

being braindead is my job, find another one =(

 

[Pluto]

The story of just about every great contributor to society includes a time of rejection, failure and despondency. I hope you are able to find your niche, or another pathway that might give you income while leaving your artistic expression as a side-project.

 

[NoPointToContinue]

If you are really passionate about art or graphic design, why not doing them for their own sake, for the joy they give to you. You don't need to be genius that changes the course or civilization to enjoy what you do.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you are suffering and going through this. It can be hard when everything feels hopeless, I understand that. Living really is painful. I agree with what the others have said about art though. Also I think if there is a chance that your life could improve maybe you should try. The option to leave this world is always there if things get unbearable.I wish you well.