I'm 20. Been depressed since I was 11, but it's got worse in recent years. I had practically no friends in high school & was basically ostracized. Tried to hang myself twice, but failed. Also, bought yew seeds, but my mother found out & confiscated them. Apparently, full suspension hanging is easier than partial hanging. Got great grades in high school, and am doing well at university. But, I have no motivation to do anything else. If I cannot ctb successfully- will try to get US citizenship & shoot my head off- or spend my life doing nothing. Maybe, writing environmental articles on the side- I like animals more than people. I had a friend once- it didn't work out- and he was misanthrope who told me to repeatedly to be very kind to animals. I get where he's coming from. Look how 'decent human beings' treat the homeless and support endless wars.
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