Why I can’t pursue professional help - do any of you feel similarly?

[-nobodyknows-]

I was in treatment for a long time when I was younger. I tried all sorts of things - therapy, meds, even ECT. Though, ultimately, it wasn't very helpful.

Still, that's not the only reason why I won't pursue that sort of thing anymore. It's just that, realistically, I don't think I can. I need to find a good, steady job, and I can't really go to therapy very easily if I'm doing that. Most of those places are only open during the workday, and I can't just take time off for that. Trying to explain why I'd be taking time off constantly to HR would also be a mess…. And don't even get me started about ECT or some of the stronger medications. There's no way to work at all while you're doing that sort of thing.

I think, for lack of a better term, I've essentially been forced to "outgrow" treatment. It's one thing when you're younger, and have more flexibility with your time, but now? It's not going to happen. I had my time to try to get better, and it didn't play out. Now, I have to do what I can with the state that I am in now.

There's also, I guess, a sort of "responsibility" factor that plays a role too. I don't think it's really right for me to rely on anyone anymore. It seems inappropriate to drag anyone into this; especially my family who had to deal with it before. It might be better if they believe everything is fine.

I may not be working right now, but since I need to get a job soon I absolutely cannot have something like therapy getting in the way of employment. It's kind of fucked up to think about. I wonder how many other people don't go to therapy or seek treatment because they just don't have time to.

Have any of you drawn a similar conclusion?

 

[Forever Sleep]

I wonder if there are other less intense services you can access. I think some therapists will even work with people over email, texts etc. Maybe that's worth considering.

For me, it's more that I don't even have the desire to 'recover' or improve my situation now. Mainly because I'm sure that would involve confronting things I would hate- so, for example, trying to be more social in order to overcome social anxiety. I don't have the willingness now to likely make my life even worse on the off chance that long- term, it might make it better.

I don't have the goals I used to have in life either. So, without something good at the end to work towards, I'd also be questioning why I would be challenging myself so intensely. I'm more comfortable with the idea that I'll just continue to try to tread water for now- until the point I can go.

Effectively, it would be frustrating for the therapist to have to work with someone so stubbornly resistant to change and, helping themselves. It would be a waste of both of our time and, my money when I'm not even open to taking their advice.

I hope you can find something though. I'm sure there must be services. I'm sure many people working do still attend therapy in some way.

 

[nobodycaresaboutme]

You have a strong sense of responsibility. I respect you. However you don't have to quit your therapy to have a job. Actually I'd had sessions many times while I was employed. Of course you can give up therapuetic relashionships when they don't help you. It's just your choice. And you can turn to someone you trust in. It's not a shame to give yourself enough time and resources and someone's help to get better.
Are there any therapists that are available on Saturday or Sunday? I think you need some help. I'm concerned that you'll end up in burnout in the workplace due to a lack of support. Mental breakdown is more likely to get in the way of continued employment rather than therapy.
I hope you get through the situation

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I never thought of it that way but I realize that this happened to me too. I have a second job now and I too feel like I outgrew therapy. Then again I never got any benefit from therapy even when I had plenty of free time. And yet none of the issues that plagued me were actually solved it feels like I just pushed them all aside by sinking into work…

 

[brighteyesfan144]

because "treatment" is a scam and meant to make you worse. you are doing the right thing by working and bettering your life. thats the Only way to get better and they know it. they know all of their attempts at "treatment" are futile and the only thing that will make you better is taking part in the world and not their twisted game of cat and mouse, but they won't tell you because of $$$

 

[-Link-]

I absolutely cannot have something like therapy getting in the way of employment.

lol

"But SaSu is the problem!!!!"

wru, Sophie Wilkinson?

 

[Fe(IV)]

I can't tell, maybe it's a regional thing. Last time I went to therapy I had it scheduled like 8 or 9PM on Fridays. Maybe it depends on the field but I don't think any of my previous bosses would have minded if I took an hour or so off as long as I made up the hours.

Maybe online therapists would have better time slots? What I've learned that it's just not the same thing for me, the empathy neurons don't work if I'm not face to face.

But you are right, office life and office politics can be cruel.