Discussion Why do you want to end it?

[Sinkinshyp]

my son dies 3yrs ago and I have been a broken destroyed depressed mess since.. I can't live without him

 

[wanttodie]

Just tired of life and living don't wont to live any more

 

[allym101]

I hate myself so much, everyday is painful. I'm tired. I feel so ugly and gross all the time. People hate me. I just want to go to sleep :)

 

[Cryptonite]

Loneliness , no future , mild kyphosis , mental illness.

I feel the kyphosis part. Except that "mild" is a label that doctors use totally incorrectly, because in this disease, "mild" in their view can be much worse than "severe". I have extremely "mild" type of this disease, yet in constant, severe and progressive pain.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Severe Sex dysphoria. Rather CTB than go through a 5-7 year full transition or live as my ASAB. I don't actually "want" to die, but for me, it is the lesser of the three evils. At this point, there is nothing (practical) that will make it worthwhile to stick around. I'm currently in limbo between living and dying, but leaning on the fence towards dying. I just need to break through this SI and guilt, and find an accessible peaceful method to escape.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Everything goes back to ugliness and low self esteem since high school, because I was ugly I had no true friends and support so that trauma created negative patterns I'm tired

 

[FuneralCry]

I want to leave this world as I find life to be unbearable. I want nothing to do with life at all. I am not meant for this world and I simply prefer the sound of non existence.

In this life there is unlimited potential for suffering and there is no limit as to how bad things can get and I want to escape from all pain. Life is a horrible, unnecessary experience which I never asked for. Nothing can hurt me when I am dead. I do not see my life as being worth living, I do not see life as being an enjoyable experience at all, life is very sad and depressing. I just want to be gone.

 

[Idontmatter]

Self hatred, depression and anxiety. Low self esteem. I feel I don't deserve to live. I can't get the suicidal thoughts out of my head. I feel like I don't matter and I feel like I shouldn't matter to anyone.

 

[Cancún]

Fuckikg doctors insane

 

[ornitier199]

Beacause

 

[yakoun]

It's a long laundry list of reasons and impulses that I won't subject y'all to the full extent of it all. What I can say is that currently I failed college, haven't told my parents about that and am incredibly worried about the ongoing mass extinction and slow collapse of the biosphere. Light and fluffy topics indeed.

 

[Dear Agony]

Bulimia. I ruined my own life and relationships to an irreversible point because of it. I don't see a future for myself without stuffing my face and throwing up afterwards, and not even my own mom can deal with me/watch me slowly kill myself. I've done the most horrible, unthinkable things to my own body and one day I know it's turning back against me.
Meanwhile, the mice endure the wheel…