Discussion why do you sh?

[l5xington]

I was kind of wondering what other people sh for.

At first, I did it as a way to punish myself because I had a lot of self hatred in the past, and then I was clean from cutting for a few years and relapsed during a panic attack. Now I do it periodically, every time I start panicking and need to ground myself. I probably shouldn't have given myself access to eyebrow razors again lol

 

[bl33ding_heart]

As a way to cope with the intense emotional turmoil caused by my bpd

 

[l5xington]

As a way to cope with the intense emotional turmoil caused by my bpd

Understandable

 

[charlieee]

I was kind of wondering what other people sh for.

At first, I did it as a way to punish myself because I had a lot of self hatred in the past, and then I was clean from cutting for a few years and relapsed during a panic attack. Now I do it periodically, every time I start panicking and need to ground myself. I probably shouldn't have given myself access to eyebrow razors again lol

I stopped 3 years ago, but I used to do it as a punishment.
My mom was going through depression at the time and she was blaming lots of things on me, and I believe every word she said. I thought I was the reason she felt that way and that no matter how much I tried to help it wasn't enough and I believed I deserved to suffer.
Then, it became a way to cope with big emotions that I was never taught to deal with (I was 13 at the time). So whenever I had a bad grade, was feeling sad, empty or even angry sometimes— I would cut myself and I felt better right away.
I stopped because as I grew up I finally taught myself how to manage my emotions.

 

[Ryukk]

I was kind of wondering what other people sh for.

At first, I did it as a way to punish myself because I had a lot of self hatred in the past, and then I was clean from cutting for a few years and relapsed during a panic attack. Now I do it periodically, every time I start panicking and need to ground myself. I probably shouldn't have given myself access to eyebrow razors again lol

Sometimes it's when I'm really upset and that's been the reason recently but in the past I've honestly just have done it because I was bored

 

[RawRX3]

when i was a kid it was a punishment but now it's much more because it calms me and I like to see my blood. I also kind of like the scars look, I think they're cute ^^

and maybe more psychologically, I hid my cutting when i was younger so no one ever found out but I don't have to hide myself now so it's a way to express the pain I've had all along, it feels authentic and freeing :3