Deathcrvsh
Member
- Apr 10, 2026
- 12
The harm overrides the sensations of negativity and I get distracted for a bit. When I was younger I cut andvdrank alcohol but the effects are toxic in itself and I don't like or deserve that. So I switched to drugs which are only technically are a form of harm. But currently I can't get my hands on them.
Why I do this is another question. It is probably the result of the feelings that I perceive as rejection or not fitting into society or, better yet, failing in my constant attempt to gain a foothold in society and the only option I have is retreating into local and psychological isolation.
Although I get along excellently without direct interpersonal contact, digital contact and the resulting platonic bond and the resulting feelings of rejection, etc. cannot be completely switched off.
At the moment I'm just pushing through and trying to ignore myself and everything around me a little more and take it lightly.
Why I do this is another question. It is probably the result of the feelings that I perceive as rejection or not fitting into society or, better yet, failing in my constant attempt to gain a foothold in society and the only option I have is retreating into local and psychological isolation.
Although I get along excellently without direct interpersonal contact, digital contact and the resulting platonic bond and the resulting feelings of rejection, etc. cannot be completely switched off.
At the moment I'm just pushing through and trying to ignore myself and everything around me a little more and take it lightly.