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Electric1

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Dec 18, 2023
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I didn't expect to make a post in recovery. For some reason, the past few days, I've been feeling more like I don't want to die. I feel like I want to live. I'm not sure why, because I haven't made an effort to change anything. Just been going on and on, honestly just making myself worse. But for some reason, something feels different. Like a warm feeling inside me. It's not SI either I don't think, because I don't feel fear like I usually do with that. I actually want to be here. I haven't felt like that in months. Thoughts anyone?
 
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lita-lassi

let me spell it out for you: go to hell
Sep 25, 2023
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brain chemistry is fickle like that. my thought? take advantage of feeling better now to do things that you previously struggled too much with; the accomplishments will feel so good and youll have things done!

i hope your brain keeps letting you feel this way and youre able to keep the upswing strong 🖤
 
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StillBreathing

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Dec 4, 2022
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I have these days too, make good use of them. They may last longer than you'd except and keep you on a path of recovery. Take any opportunity you can, small or big to do something good in your life. Now might be a good chance to take a step towards something you would never consider before.
 
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EternalDreams

dreaming
Sep 19, 2019
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After having everything I need to ctb suddenly I too feel the same way, I'm not sure as to why though but honestly I'm all for it. It's your best chance for recovery and I'll take advantage of it to live another day. So I would say take this chance for recovery and I hope that what you're feeling will last.
 
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Readytogo246

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for me...confronting the permanence of death has led me to appreciate the wandering moments of peace. I still want to ctb though.
 

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