Venting Why can't I just fucking jump

[JustKillBen22]

I have nothing in my life at all, no reason to keep on living, it is all pain and suffering and depression. I have no reason to not step off the edge. But I can not do it and I don't understand why, its not fair. I just want it fucking over, all of it, I am so trapped because of my own weakness. I'm not alive, this isn't living, but I can't die either. I don't know what to fucking do, I just want to be killed by someone. Someone just come up behind me and push me off, or kill me when I'm asleep, or shoot me, or drive me over with a car. Just anything to stop this pain

 

[LostSoul101]

It takes A LOT of strength to NOT go through with the exit door that's right infront of you. Don't worry, do it in your own time. Don't worry. Only you are rushing yourself. We hate being rushed, don't we?! No one else is rushing you to hurry up. You'll know when it's time. You can go and stand at the edge as many times as you want to between now and being ready.

 

[imjustanemptyshell]

Hey.... I feel the same.... hugssss

 

[LostSoul101]

It actually takes a lot of strength to go through the exit door

Trying to make the OP feel better......?!

 

[Life_and_Death]

It actually takes a lot of strength to go through the exit door

Trying to make the OP feel better......?!

actually depending on how a person is feeling and their SI it can be difficult in both cases :)

 

[DontGiveAshiit]

Trying to make the OP feel better......?!

I dont know OP, but I know that for me, spitting lies wont make me feel any better. Would much rather just hear 'I hope it will go well for you' than bullshits.
And Im actually in the same position as OP since Im here, you know...

 

[LostSoul101]

Then make your own post! We're trying to comfort the OP who feels like shit for not doing something!

 

[PointlessStruggle]

Never understood why people always deride suicide as a "cowardly" move. It takes insane guts to overcome SI. It's not a "wimpy" move at all. Makes no sense to me how that logic works

 

[LostSoul101]

It requires a lot of bravery to walk away from their method and to follow through. Let's comfort the distressed OP who feels distressed about not doing it.

 

[DontGiveAshiit]

Then make your own post! We're trying to comfort the OP who feels like shit for not doing something!

Did you even understand the point I was making?

 

[LostSoul101]

Oh I give the fuck up! Fine, tell the OP they are weak for not going through with it. Take their spotlight too because you think they ought to be stronger by doing it. Let's deride the OP for being weak when they feel weak. I thought this forum was to comfort people when they need it. Take the OP's spotlight. Go ahead. I'm out of this thread.

 

[Ghost2211]

Maybe jumping just isn't your thing. Jumping can be very SI triggering for some people.

 

[JustKillBen22]

Maybe jumping just isn't your thing. Jumping can be very SI triggering for some people.

I don't have another option. It's this, or I don't die. Unfortunately it doesn't seem like I can jump, but I can't not die either, I am so fucking trapped. It's just 1 step, why can't I take 1 fucking step

 

[Ghost2211]

I don't have another option. It's this, or I don't die. Unfortunately it doesn't seem like I can jump, but I can't not die either, I am so fucking trapped. It's just 1 step, why can't I take 1 fucking step

Have you given the method resource a good read over? I can't really names things specifically, but there are definitely things there that are accessible to everybody. Some are psychologically harder than others unfortunately.

 

[sadworld]

Jumping is really hard. I think you'll find other methods that are available for you if you check the resource thread out

 

[muffin222]

Jumping is extremely hard and terrifying, and people have survived jumps and falls from very high heights. I wouldn't be able to jump either

 

[Fthis]

I have nothing in my life at all, no reason to keep on living, it is all pain and suffering and depression. I have no reason to not step off the edge. But I can not do it and I don't understand why, its not fair. I just want it fucking over, all of it, I am so trapped because of my own weakness. I'm not alive, this isn't living, but I can't die either. I don't know what to fucking do, I just want to be killed by someone. Someone just come up behind me and push me off, or kill me when I'm asleep, or shoot me, or drive me over with a car. Just anything to stop this pain

Idea:
Count down from 3 to 1 at the edge. Jump on 2 to help combat your SI.

 

[Trisolaris]

I can relate. I had the chance for three months to jump off the ninth floor and I really wanted to but couldn't do it.