Venting Why can’t I cope with her abandonment?

[Reflection]

Throughout my life I dealt with many hard situations, the most prominent ones being child abuse, sexual abuse, bullying, academic failure, and eveb being accused of a crime I didn't do... I remember that life was very tough and painful in some of these situations yet I never felt this bad and this long to top it all off. I never thought about seriously about ending it all, divising a plan and setting a date yet here I am, and because of what? One girl. It's almost comical... I don't even know why the hell does she still mean so much to me, especially after such a long time. I think that people who end up having everlasting happy marriages with their sweethearts are extremely lucky.

 

[SVEN]

Time passes, Love lasts.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think love makes us vulnerable in a way. I don't know about romantic love but, I've had a best friend. When you have someone in life you think you can count on and rely on, it can make all the other baggage we carry seem lighter. I feel like- if we lose them, it's like ripping the bandaid off again.

Have you ever watched 'Frasier'? A US sitcom about a radio psychiatrist. A caller phones in to say she can't stop crying after a break up. That she feels as if she's in mourning. Frasier replies that she is. And, not just for her ex boyfriend but for the life she thought she was going to have with him.

I don't think you should be so hard on yourself. I don't know how long it's been for you but, I think it can take years to get over someone. Sorry- that's probably really depressing. I've only gone through crazy limerence and it used to take me around 3 years to stop caring about them all together. That wasn't even real!

 

[aikou]

Love is a very strong emotion, at least for me.

I've never had a girlfriend or a significant other in that sense, the one time I fell completely head over heels for a girl she ended up vanishing from my life without any prior warning. No goodbye, no we're not meant to be together, hell it could've even been an insult and I'd feel better. I am still suffering because of this currently. At least for me, there's just this longing to feel loved and acknowledged by someone you have romantic feelings for. There's no other explanation I can think of. I wish you the best in your life.

 

[babouflo201223]

Tout au long de ma vie, j'ai dû faire face à de nombreuses situations difficiles, les plus marquantes étant la maltraitance infantile, les abus sexuels, le harcèlement, l'échec scolaire et même le fait d'être accusé d'un crime que je n'avais pas commis... Je me souviens que la vie était très dure et douloureuse dans certaines de ces situations, mais je ne me suis jamais senti aussi mal et aussi impatient de tout finir. Je n'ai jamais pensé sérieusement à tout arrêter, à établir un plan et à fixer une date, mais me voilà, et à cause de quoi ? Une fille. C'est presque comique... Je ne sais même pas pourquoi diable elle signifie encore autant pour moi, surtout après si longtemps. Je pense que les gens qui finissent par avoir des mariages heureux et éternels avec leur chéri ont beaucoup de chance.

For me the same : soon it will be 1 year that my girlfriend (quite 16 years together) left for a new life without me. Each day, each minute, she is in my mind and my life is just loneliness. Life was not easy, but with her life has a sense. Life lost sense. It's why I think to CTB.