Why am i still sad??

[Some place nice]

I have the love of my life. So why am I still sad? I got upset when my phone wouldn't let them hear what I was trying to say. The moment passed so i didn't text it too them. Idk how much they heard. Im trying to stay quiet so they fall asleep but I dont think its working. They have work in a few hours and I wish they'd sleep. Idk if they are asleep or just sleep talking but, when its close to 9 I'll just speak up and of they dont answer than I'll hang up so their alarm will ring this time. Last time I didn't hang up and they missed 6 hours of work...thay said that they have plenty pto so it didnt effect them but, I still feel bad for that. No matter how much I dont want to hang up I will if they are not awake. They are my other half and I hate how we have to live apart for rn. I love them with my whole being... I just want to be with them...