Who do you intend to say goodbye to before you CTB?

[1up]

I'm unsure of who to tell before I CTB. I don't have many friends that would understand my predicament, and the ones that do likely don't care that much.

Who will you make aware of your plans/say goodbye to before you decide to catch the bus for sure?

 

[gracefulexit]

Not one soul! Everyone I've ever encountered in my life caused pain. I'm ctb due to those people. I'm definitely going to write a letter blaming those people

 

[FuneralCry]

I will just write notes. Nobody will ever know about my plans. They would not accept and understand my decision to ctb. They would want me to stay alive as they are selfish. I want to ctb as far away from other people as I possibly can.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

Nobody

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

I've already told my friends irl that I'm eventually going to ctb. I honestly don't care enough anymore to say goodbye to them before I die. If anything, I'll say goodbye to a few friends I've made from SS.

 

[Circles]

I guess it depends on the moment. Maybe nobody. Or I wish I could tell my mom but that can't happen. I would post a goodbye thread on here but it's pretty fucking shallow especially since most of the friends I've had are either dead, recovering, or I simply pushed away. And so I will basically be saying goodbye to complete strangers. Yay. I guess I got to remember that's partially why I want to die. Nobody fucking cares about me. :/

 

[Cheza_mus]

People here on SS only

 

[thequiet1]

Now,.. nobody.
I once had a deal with my best friend but he also has to fight like me. Now I feel guilty about telling him how much it hurts and I want him to be happy without me. I decided not to tell him anything... how I feel etc., 'cause I don't want him to feel guilty. I think it's better if he hates me than if he feels guilty.

 

[KTbear]

No one IRL. Maybe here on SS though.

 

[Samsara]

I don't think it would be helpful for either me nor others to say goodbye before I do it, so I would have my goodbye addressed in my note/post ctb emails/posts. Might be on the phone with a pro choice friend during though, so in that case would technically only be saying goodbye to him.

 

[aprilshowers]

I'll only say goodbye as far as letting them know that I am dead, but there won't be any personalized notes and such. I aim for my suicide to be utterly impersonal.

 

[wait-for-the-bus]

Probably SS only or if I find any other forum that understands.

I am sure it would be spur of the moment and with in an hour of CTB

 

[byebyeburdee]

I'm not telling anyone. Instead, I'm taking time to have meaningful one-on-one moments with the people I care about. Little things like a walk in the park or going to a concert together. They won't know that was my way of saying goodbye until it's over, but hopefully they will have one last happy memory to keep.

 

[needed_]

I'm not telling anyone. Instead, I'm taking time to have meaningful one-on-one moments with the people I care about. Little things like a walk in the park or going to a concert together. They won't know that was my way of saying goodbye until it's over, but hopefully they will have one last happy memory to keep.

this is really well said. it is a really kind way to leave people behind (if there's any kind way at all..)