Discussion Which drugs do you regularly use/abuse to cope with life?

[StrugglingSienna]

I'm curious how many other people here have essentially become polydrug addicts in order to cope with life and their CTB thoughts.

Me personally, I like to snort a couple fat lines of amphetamine and just a little bit of Xanax to get my day going. The speed keeps me energized and productive at work which keeps me from getting fired and the Xanax lubricates me socially and makes the day go by super fast because it inhibits short-term memory creation. When I get home it's either time for more speed if I want to force myself to do something productive or it's alcohol/weed/oxys if I want to force myself to relax. Snort ketamine about once a week for depression, or at least that's my excuse. Have experimented with most psychedelics at this point.

So many people would judge me for all of this, but I know that my drug degeneracy is the only reason that I am currently able to function in society. I'm sure I would have offed myself much sooner if I didn't let myself use this stuff to cope.

Let me know what your personal cocktail is and why.

 

[DivineSpark]

My only addictions are food (comfort eating) and internet.

 

[JesiBel]

No drugs, no alcohol. Just cutting myself.

 

[Namelesa]

I love how the option for not using anything says I am a good girl :3

I do sometimes cut tho.

 

[StrugglingSienna]

I love how the option for not using anything says I am a good girl :3

I do sometimes cut tho.

Well, yeah you are a good girl for not using, honestly. I'm proud of you (and all other non-users) for that. A little jelly, even. Cutting yourself is a much healthier coping mechanism than what I'm doing to my own body.

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

i wish i didn't have to rawdog this shit.
I'll have to rawdog my death aswell, wtf.

 

[Namelesa]

Well, yeah you are a good girl for not using, honestly. I'm proud of you (and all other non-users) for that. A little jelly, even. Cutting yourself is a much healthier coping mechanism than what I'm doing to my own body.

honestly you don't need to be proud of me for this. I am literally unable to access to drugs cus I am trapped by family so I am forced to rawdog life. I could steal alcohol from my family but to me it tastes disgusting so I don't even have any incentive to drink.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

I still have some Xanax in my house from where I was hospitalized, I am very suicidal and it didn't work on me but I do think from time to time if I should take one pill when things get extremely though, the doctor that prescribed it said that I could use it like that after the hospitalization period but since it had no effect on me I didn't even bother, it's still in date for another couple of months I think.

Nevermind it expired since january.

 

[ilvgore]

i dont use drugs, but im thinking about it because i can't cope with my life. The boredom, anxiety, depression. Anxiety is the worst thing i struggle with, and ive heard good things about cannabis and the ability to reduce anxiety with it. Some people also say that dmt changed their outlook on life and their anxiety disappeared or that they got better the only thing i have is spirituality which makes things a little bit better but that can also turn into a dark path. Also i use music, music is my drug, MAAAYBEEE it influences my mood but i dont know, what i know is i have to stop living in my daydreams

 

[LimpandNumb]

Nicotine for me.

 

[StrugglingSienna]

I still have some Xanax in my house from where I was hospitalized, I am very suicidal and it didn't work on me but I do think from time to time if I should take one pill when things get extremely though, the doctor that prescribed it said that I could use it like that after the hospitalization period but since it had no effect on me I didn't even bother, it's still in date for another couple of months I think.

I'd be careful with that stuff if I were you. Benzos decrease the survival instinct the most out of any drug, in my opinion. In any case, it should be perfectly good for years after its expiration date.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Food mainly. (High sugar, fat, salt content.) Some alcohol.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I used to use weed but now I use shrooms more. I would say that my relationship with that drug is pretty healthy overall. I remember thinking that I would use alcohol to cope with life around 2 years ago but after getting really drunk on some vodka this one time I can't really handle it too well anymore. I can't drink strong alcoholic drinks without immediately feeling ill. It doesn't help that alcohol kind of tastes nasty and one of the few alcoholic drinks that I do enjoy isn't available in my country.

Probably for the best since I find that shrooms actually help me, unlike alcohol which just numbs the pain/exasperates it.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

I'd be careful with that stuff if I were you. Benzos decrease the survival instinct the most out of any drug, in my opinion. In any case, it should be perfectly good for years after its expiration date.

I also found some in date Bupropion and Sertraline , this was my combo of meds but it doesn't do jack shit

 

[lostintheraincirce]

My only "drug" are food( especially my comfort food) and "phone" addiction.

 

[Dak]

Binge and purge. That's my happy place sadly which is why I'm alone.

 

[wasphyso]

mushrooms

 

[thot88]

I love buprenorphine but I can't use it every day. It's the best drug that takes away the physical and mental and depression.

I'm going to take it for a few days before quitting.

And unfortunately I have to get it from a dealer on the black market.

I drink a lot of alcohol

 

[beyondgone]

Weed and clonazepam in the day then alcohol at night unless im having an episode then I binge out

 

[Hotsackage]

Booze mostly, but then i start arguing with people over trivial things, that don't really bother me normaly lol

 

[deadbidaylight]

I started smoking cigarettes at 11. I switched to vaping almost 2 years ago and still do that. Other than that, nothing.

 

[missedmybus]

Tried most things very young. Ended up with daily driver of liquor, amphetamines and benzodiazepines.

Got my act together, was pretty much straight edge for a couple of years. Just wine with dinner every now and then.

Moved cities for a career switch. Started drinking pretty heavily again on weekends. And light drinking on weekdays.

When COVID happened, it really messed up my career plans, I was in a not so great relationship and my best friend relapsed, so I thought why not?

Discovered Designer Drugs. Specifically PCP analogues, which feels to me like the headspace of ketamine crossed with the nice energy of speed.
Spent about 2-3 years switching between (semi) daily use of that and benzos/alcohol/speed.

Since then basically straight edge again outside of benzodiazepines and alcohol here and there, mostly to sleep or not spin out of control. Nothing daily or weekly or very regularly though.

Edit: Oh yeah there were also a couple of months last year when I was taking a lot of tramadol (prescribed so doesn't count hahah) and O-DSMT (Tramadol metabolite I found online, this does count I guess) in combination with benzos and cannabis and videogames. But my back was fucked up and I couldnt leave my bedroom because of the pain so I think it's okay.

 

[sximii]

Self harm or regular cigarettes usually. At the most cannabis or Dramamine but rarely, I'm scared of drugs fucking up my life even more

 

[Forveleth]

On-again, off-again drinker here. I grew up sheltered so I have no idea how to get hard stuff but if I did I would have been strung out on the street or even dead a loooooooong time ago. Instead I eat until I am fat, feel bad, lose weight, drink, feel bad, go back to eating, and the cycle repeats.

 

[ForgottenAgain]

Used to abuse alcohol several years ago. Nowadays I don't use anything as nothing fills the void and I have strong personal reasons to never smoke anything or do drugs. The past several weeks I've been vomiting due to extreme stress.

 

[ceilng_tile]

I'm trying to give my wife a baby so I couldn't use any of these even if I wanted to. Not that the consolation prize baby plan is even working. Three expensive IUI cycles and nothing to show for it.

 

[vitbar]

Nothing regular that isn't prescription.

Will drink occasionally, rarely take psychedelics, might with some of the others as a one off (some opioids, benzos, weed, MDMA)

 

[VisionW0lf]

I very much prefer weed, it helps 'slow things down' while I'm still mostly functional, if not more so compared to being sober. It's still illegal here though and hard to get my hands on if I suddenly run out so I often turn to copious amounts of alcohol. I do really love cocaine and MD but that's much more of a social/party thing, couldn't afford it on a regular basis.

 

[hhtroc]

I like drinking alcohol, it makes me be the person I always thought I could be without the inhibitations, makes me feel like everyone else.

 

[snwcolt]

Oh this my jam...I've got my formula down like a motherfucker....meth thru the day then mid-afternoon start in with some weed and high octane liquor(generally bourbon 90-100 proof) as afternoon turns to early evening I pop at least 300-450mg Seroquel and start really pouring the booze down my throat. By the time I pass out I'm about 5 miles past numb and feeling like the universe is suckin all over my dee