When will it be time?

[ixkitty]

Due to my anxiety, I'm having a hard time just doing the act. Because in my mind, "what if I fail? I still need to go to work tomorrow." Or "I can't pay rent in the psych word." If I wasn't so worried about all of these future ideas. I can't help but to think I would be long gone.

I'm not exactly sure what to do now

 

[UnwantedUnlovable85]

Same here, I don't have a lot of money so that prevents it because im not going to go out hanging or slicing my vein but gas and guns and meds are expensive. Plus my anxiety ramps up when I wonder what happens after? Is there less stress? Less pain? Will I be reborn, visit the multiverse? Go to hell? Heaven, reincarnation? Will I be my idealized self? So now I just drift day to day.

 

[FuneralCry]

The fear of failure is what holds me back from ctb personally. I wish there was an option to just fall asleep and never wake up without having to go through the process of ctb. I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[ixkitty]

The fear of failure is what holds me back from ctb personally. I wish there was an option to just fall asleep and never wake up without having to go through the process of ctb. I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

Same to you.

Same here, I don't have a lot of money so that prevents it because im not going to go out hanging or slicing my vein but gas and guns and meds are expensive. Plus my anxiety ramps up when I wonder what happens after? Is there less stress? Less pain? Will I be reborn, visit the multiverse? Go to hell? Heaven, reincarnation? Will I be my idealized self? So now I just drift day to day.

I try not to think that far ahead. I just hope I'm not reincarnated because I can't deal all over again.