When to ctb

[Brokenwithbpd]

How does everyone know they have used all their options for recovery and it's time to ctb? I'm about ready to say fuck it
I have SN in my amazon cart. What a feeling I got. My heart started pounding

 

[schopenh]

Only you can decide when you've had enough. It's not about the amount of medications you've swallowed or chats with a therapist you've had

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

Only you can decide when you've had enough. It's not about the amount of medications you've swallowed or chats with a therapist you've had

I'm just worthless no matter what. I know people can't tell me when to ctb. Just curious when people stopped trying

 

[rhiino]

I think there are always some options left, there is always something you haven't tried. That is why the pro-lifers tell you to move on indefinitely.
However, everybody has a point where it is just enough, where you just cannot or don't want to keep trying, keep suffering, just for the sake of not suffering one day. You should know best when this point is reached.
For me, it has been reached. I cannot move on, I suffered too much.

And maybe, just maybe you need to have the SN ready and mixed in front of you after taking all the meds to know whether you want to live or die.

 

[Brokenwithbpd]

I think there are always some options left, there is always something you haven't tried. That is why the pro-lifers tell you to move on indefinitely.
However, everybody has a point where it is just enough, where you just cannot or don't want to keep trying, keep suffering, just for the sake of not suffering one day. You should know best when this point is reached.
For me, it has been reached. I cannot move on, I suffered too much.

And maybe, just maybe you need to have the SN ready and mixed in front of you after taking all the meds to know whether you want to live or die.

Damn, that is put in a great way. Right now I just have the SN sitting in my amazon cart, maybe I need it in front of me. But I know I act impulsively a lot. The only thing that has me still here is the fact that my mom cries and begs me that she needs me when I tell her I want to kill myself (and she knows I'm serious). My mom has been the only person in my life to ever stay and do good