whatacatastrophe
just shoot me already
- Sep 8, 2020
- 16
I can't take my narcissistic mom's bullsbit anymore. She has already broken me beyond any sort of normal life, and my chances of even getting to a full recovery are slim to none. My therapist doesn't seem to take me seriously anymore either. Because I've been happy before, apparently doing all the same shit I did before will make me happy again. (Hint: it doesn't work).
My dad has early onset dementia. His memory is going quickly. Once he completely forgets me (likely in the next 3 years), that's when I'll ctb. I'm still not sure if I want to, but it's almost like I have to. I just need the world to stop. I nearly had a panic attack today because of how LITTLE stressful things were going on (until my mom picked a fight with me, of course).
Sorry for how messy this is. My brain can't properly function because of how upset I am right now.
My dad has early onset dementia. His memory is going quickly. Once he completely forgets me (likely in the next 3 years), that's when I'll ctb. I'm still not sure if I want to, but it's almost like I have to. I just need the world to stop. I nearly had a panic attack today because of how LITTLE stressful things were going on (until my mom picked a fight with me, of course).
Sorry for how messy this is. My brain can't properly function because of how upset I am right now.
