sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,013
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Let's just say I feel like I'm a disgusting person who definitely deserves to die because of what I've done
sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,013
Well, the way she treated me, you might say it was!
ClaudeCTTE
Misunderstood...
- Aug 22, 2023
- 264
Malaria
If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
- Feb 24, 2024
- 1,084
Pretend to be someone I wasn't for approval and acceptance from people who don't care about me anyways.
anotherlastchance
Your never not you
- Feb 3, 2024
- 94
Well Well where to start…
When I still was living in squats I used to steal stuff for my addiction: bicycles, scooters, tools, copper, lead, and much more the worst thing I stole back than,
even made the local newspaper. its was an special electrical bike designed for someone in a wheelchair. Yeah I know disgusting wright. I also stole like a realy nice sail yacht one time. so that me and my dog had a place to sleep.
Also multiple Cheating on my ex girlfriend.
Yeah there are a number of bad things I've done. but I never killed anybody and I'm a nice guy if you get to know me but yeah dark past and shit. And just for me this song
sserafim
they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
- Sep 13, 2023
- 9,013
That's what I used to do to. I used to change myself, conform and try to fit in in order to be accepted by others
ijustwishtodie
I have finally found my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
- 5,795
I'm not sure actually. Now that I think about it, I don't think that I really did many bad things in life. Maybe I'm just innocent or something. There must be something but I can't think of anything
Agon321
I use google translate
- Aug 21, 2023
- 1,656
Are you planning to create a black file to intimidate us? :)
Seriously though, that's a good question.
Confronting your actions is an interesting and difficult thing.
I don't want to give all the details.
It's also hard for me to choose, so I'll write what comes to my mind.
- At school, I mentally (sometimes physically) bullied at least one person.
I've done it with others.
I'm not necessarily proud of it now.
I also "bullied" others, but in the end I had good relationships with them.
- As a child, I tortured cats a bit.
Maybe I'm exaggerating the word "torture", but I was very unpleasant to some cats.
I also burned snails alive in the oven (and other small animals).
It made me happy then.
Now I would probably not commit such an act.
- I stole money from several of my family members.
I'm not going to elaborate on this
- ...and probably a few other things.
I simply wrote the first thing that came to my mind.
Some things aren't necessarily bad, but they can be controversial.
I'm definitely not a good person.
I sometimes have radical views.
However, I do not consider myself an "evil" person.
I'm currently harmless.
I'm 21 if that makes any difference.
dragonofenvy
Warlock
- Oct 8, 2023
- 722
I emotionally manipulated friends in high school and treated them very badly. I eventually learned my lesson but it was too late. I also was a bit abusive to one of my dogs for like, a week because I was frustrated with training him. It wasn't anything crazy but it was beyond the normal corporal punishment you're supposed to do when training a dog. I realized I was being a piece of shit and stopped doing it and now really love the dog. Don't live with him anymore and miss him (the only thing I do miss lol. I don't even miss my parents).
Otherwise, the worst thing I've done was go to college. This time it's not me being cruel but instead being stupid. Big waste of money and waste of time for something that didn't end up going well because my school wasn't supportive in helping students get an internship during COVID and just expected us to get along on our own.
SuicidalOrganism
Experienced
- May 31, 2023
- 222
EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 5,158
SuicidalOrganism
Experienced
- May 31, 2023
- 222
Someone pulled my pants down as i was walking in the classroom one day, which was an unfortunate day where i didnt wear any underwear
EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 5,158
Oof, that's awful. I'm sorry that happened to you. I don't think that would really count though, because that only happened because some asshole pulled down your pants. This wasn't a case of you specifically deciding one day that to just waltz into your classroom half naked.Last edited:
SuicidalOrganism
Experienced
- May 31, 2023
- 222
it wasnt a big deal in my school tbh, stuff like swearing at teachers, vandalism, getting into knife fights, drugs, sex in restrooms is pretty common
EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
- 5,158
Your school sounds terrible.
marchshift
Member
- Mar 15, 2024
- 89
I went no contact with my Mom and she CTB. I have a temper and tend to go say harsh things and go no contact. It hurts really bad and I regret my behavior. I've also had some dark thoughts/wishes towards abusive people. Bullies irritate me.
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,598
When I was about 28, I got my gf pregnant. We were already fighting a lot, and, I guess, the stress of the pregnancy just made things worse? Anyway, I got a house and moved her, along with her 2 kids from a previous relationship, in with me, and things just headed even more downhill from there. I got to learn more about her, her mothering abilities especially, and began to realize that I had made a big mistake, not only by getting her pregnant, but even being with her at all. She just didn't have the values I have. Anyway, I really started hoping (not praying since I'm atheist) that somehow she would lose the child, my child, that she was carrying. At the beginning of the 2nd trimester she did just that. I think the cosmos has punished me over the past 30 years. Maybe I've been punishing myself. Either way, it doesn't matter, as I deserved it.
Boy, can I hear all the hate words now. I doubt anyone can say anything that I haven't already said to myself daily over the past 30 years.
Is that what you were looking for, OP? Writing a book? IDC.
