What's stopping you from doing it now?

[FarAcrossTheWater]

Aside from lack of access, what is stopping you from CTB now?

Personally for me, it's wanting to get in shape and see what it's like to be in good shape.

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I think getting in shape might make a difference in your state of mind. Perhaps life will be better for you.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

The only thing stopping me is SI.

 

[Anxious_Panda]

The thought of who would find me. I don't want to traumatize anyone. And my cat. I raised him from two days old on a bottle and he's now four years old and he's my heart and soul. He comes to look for me if I'm out of his sight for too long.

 

[allym101]

Planning. I want to make sure this attempt is my last. My last attempts of failed because of lazy and impulsive planning, I'm not going to let that be my downfall anymore. I'm also under a microscope so my every action is being watched and I have to be really careful to not arouse any suspicion. If it was up to me, I'd love to die any minute now but I know that ultimately I need to think things through thoroughly.

 

[rt1989526]

I picked November just cause I want to see who wins the election. It won't make a difference for me either way, but I'm genuinely curious. Then I'm outta here forever.

 

[FarAcrossTheWater]

I think getting in shape might make a difference in your state of mind. Perhaps life will be better for you.

Great points but my problems probably aren't related to my physical health. I wish it were all that simple.

 

[LastFlowers]

The means to a method that has a high success rate and the fact that I still have things left to get rid of and prepare.

 

[InterstateFlowers]

Family. I love them too much and it's literally the only thing keeping me here.

 

[LonelyDude15]

I picked November just cause I want to see who wins the election. It won't make a difference for me either way, but I'm genuinely curious. Then I'm outta here forever.

Lmao same, I'm too invested and want to see the season finale.

 

[Disappointered]

Aside from the usual factors and SI it's the fact that i do have a gf who doesn't appear to want to leave me.

 

[watsonsmith]

Fear of surviving SN.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

SI and I just kinda wanna know who the remaining Smash Ultimate characters are...

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

I have something cool coming in the mail that i'd like to at least see before i yeet myself. That's... kinda it.

 

[everydayiloveyou]

Life insurance contestability clause. I also want to get my degree. Just two more years for both to be done and dusted

 

[Johnshed3103]

Fear of surviving SN.

I'm sort of worried a little about that but what I can gather if I don't vomit it should work.

 

[RedRed]

I'm waiting for my skin to clear up again. I want to at least be presentable when I ctb. Also I can't do it at home. I don't want my parents to be traumatized. Need to wait next year. I just have to get through this for a while. :)

 

[darkness falls]

PS5 baby. I'm a proud gamer and can't wait for Sony's next masterpiece. I guess I'm just not ready yet. I'm still giving life a chance. But what's right for me doesn't mean it's right for you. Only you can decide.

I'm not sure how many people would have the capacity to survive what I have. I feel like that's a truth for everyone reading this. And suicide is probably one of the biggest statements one can make. We should have the freedom to make such a statement when and how we choose. It's our goddamn sacred right. Ctb takes bravery and strength most don't have.

 

[Ghost2211]

Small potentials of hope.

 

[kane]

I'm constantly asking myself this. Fear...but fear of what? Fear of something worse beyond death? Fear of devastating family? Fear of letting go of fantasies of a decent life? Blind survival instinct?

 

[goodbyebunny]

I guess I can still derive comfort and joy in outlets like anime, and my other hobbies. Social interactions are getting harder for me though, as I get more and more accustomed to self isolation. I suspect when quarantine is over I'll have a hard time assimilating back into society when I have gotten so used to the freedom of being alone at home in my room everyday. So maybe that will finally push me to the edge.

 

[Disappointered]

I'm constantly asking myself this. Fear...but fear of what? Fear of something worse beyond death? Fear of devastating family? Fear of letting go of fantasies of a decent life? Blind survival instinct?

It's so horrible that being overly fearful might have been the reason your life ends up so unsatisfying that you end up suicidal...but then that very same factor prevents you from putting an end to the evil it has caused. talk about adding insult to injury.

 

[Painless_end]

Dumb survival instinct

 

[xLosthopex]

I have my method all ready to go but I still have stuff to do like clean my room, throw out stuff, also am just trying to cherish every last moments with my dogs, but also the fear of failing although that's highly unlikely with my method but I only have one shot to make this work and I'm scared of fucking it up

 

[Viceroy]

Aside from lack of access, what is stopping you from CTB now?

Personally for me, it's wanting to get in shape and see what it's like to be in good shape.

Cba figuring it out or getting the materials

 

[Homecoming]

what is stopping you from CTB now?

Unattainable proper fasting schedule. My CTB method (SN) requires fasting and my abusive, mentally ill parents are home most of the time b'coz of the f*ck!ng pandemic that got worse and worse each day

 

[Lilacmoon]

my sn not coming

 

[degeneratewaste]

What is stopping me from CTBing right now is mostly indecisiveness. I can't choose a method.... everything is either too hard or too scary, and the only methods I could actually choose are completely fucking inaccessible to me.

 

[Incorrigible77777]

N intercepted

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I honestly do not know why at this point. Daily I think of picking up my gun and shootings myself. I know I'm past that time frame on my insurance so my wife will get the payout. I have this feeling I will just know when the time is right.