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5er50ji

5er50ji

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Jan 27, 2026
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For me it's been feeling too anxious to focus on uni work to the point I'm falling behind. Also having my workplace accommodations taken away from me (autism) and just feeling like there's no point trying anymore.
 
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PanaxMan

Water fasting until death (Currently homeless)
Apr 11, 2023
679
For me it's been feeling to anxious to focus on uni work to the point I'm falling behind. Also having my workplace accommodations taken away from me (autism) and just feeling like there's no point trying anymore.
Blackmail from my parents. I just don't want to deal with it anymore so I'm homeless
 
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thelostautistic

Mage
Jul 31, 2025
525
My chronic pain and fatigue getting worse. It's making things so hard🙁
 
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crystalrope

Member
May 13, 2026
13
My ex raped me for years and now is stalking me. I just want to be free
 
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lalaloopsie

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May 12, 2026
10
borderline and with no prospects for the future.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,427
I always suffer so much as a result of being trapped in this dreadful, horrific world so cruelly denied the option to peacefully cease existing and never suffer in this torturous, cruel existence ever again, I always suffer so much as a result of this torturous, dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake and it's just so terrible to me how this existence was even imposed at all.

All I want is to be at peace from the torture of existing, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering, in this existence of torturous suffering the peace of non-existence is just all I see as desirable, existence to me will just always be a mistake and it's so painful to me how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer. I'll always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence that just causes all this cruelty and suffering but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, this existence truly never should had been imposed.
 
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turned_to_one

Member
May 7, 2026
8
i have the means to be happy but i just can't get there. i feel trapped by my own hand, in my own home with my loving partner and dog

im pushing the boulder and just don't want to anymore what it yields is not enough and i don't hope for a better future anymore. im not interested in pushing the boulder to get there. i'd like a hard stop
 
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SilentSiren

SilentSiren

Member
May 6, 2026
7
Blackmailed by my ex and left in a worse position than I was in before which was already nothing but misery and isolation.
 
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AuraByte

AuraByte

If I'm lost, please don't find me.
Jun 24, 2025
122
My chronic health getting worse, losing loved ones, and losing my job.

It's like the universe is just goading me to end it.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
2,399
Being rejected again. Won't happen again I'm done trying to connect.
 
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exrthliver

New Member
Jan 15, 2025
1
i mess up every relationship i get in. including my current. i just want to be better but i know i never will be.
 
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Aphid

Rotting Failure.
Apr 30, 2026
102
everything going on with the world and knowing that I am an awful person, having to live with myself after everything ive done and the continued torture I put into myself while people who also deserve it just walk away from it,
penance and suffering,
and generally lately with the way the world is built around suffering and death, so others can survive, it's horrific. And it's broken me
 
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21N1NA

New Member
May 14, 2026
1
For me it's been feeling too anxious to focus on uni work to the point I'm falling behind. Also having my workplace accommodations taken away from me (autism) and just feeling like there's no point trying anymore.
My life has been falling apart little by little this year. My car literally keeps getting into accidents even tho I'm a great driver. My bf of two years broke up with me out of nowhere and ik it's probably not that big of deal but I hate this feeling. 2 yrs ago my life was okay and steady now it's chaos again. I feel like its just gonna get worse from here and I'm scared
 
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PainThreshold

PainThreshold

Shrug off the pain. They'll have to hurt you more.
Feb 3, 2026
54
Being told to just be fucking grateful, that I should just fucking suck it up.

And isolating from my group after I had rejected one of their many "favours".

People come to me when I do well and then fuck off I stopped being useful for them. I don't even want to get better.
 
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