What your main reason for suicide

[lotus11]

Although most people have multiple reasons for suicide, if you had to choose your top one what would it be? For me I could tick every box on this so it's really difficult but I guess probably exhaustion would have to win...

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

No gf.

 

[TheHatedOne]

I can't really say a main a reason, it's more like a combination between how fucked up humans are, how fucked up life is and loneliness, but if I REALLY had to pick up one of these I'd say humanity.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hate living. That is my main reason. I want nothing to do with life. I simply do not want to exist. Life is not for me. I just want to sleep forever.

 

[demuic]

Pretty much all of those reasons play an equal part (though I wouldn't say heartbreak in the romantic sense for me). Together, they all make life unbearable and it is only made worse by the fact that life and this world is not for me.

 

[Mr2005]

I'm anticipating a load of bs answers already

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Finances, health problems and alienation from society. The trifecta of misery.

I must be a real masochist to stay alive for this long.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Basically, my one big dream in life, the thing that kept me going and not giving in and carrying out an airtight exit plan every single day for the past 30 some odd years is no longer attainable. I lost it. And now? I legitimately am at a complete loss as to why I should keep going. No future, no friends, distant from family and I think I am developing the pre stages of dementia. Yeah, I am like a box of 5 year old cookies in a scummy convenience store. Wayyyyy past my expiration date and I just need to be thrown away with the rest of the useless trash taking up space.

 

[ihatemyselfsomuch]

I don't really have a good reason for being suicidal, so just chose "mental health problems"
"general hatred of society" is a close second though

 

[Meditation guide]

monotony

 

[Nightmare]

i got terrorized as a child and spent my childhood crying because of abuses and humiliation but i dont really care that much for im completely ok with all that pain that i taste everyday
i got belittled so much and never had anything of quality in my life, my own parents who were supposed to unconditionally love me and contribute in the human's evolution through me has unconditionally enslaved me and sabotaged my every effort, my education my immigration plans and my mother did also destroy my life by making my psychologists misdiagnose my illnesses and hate me because she convinces everyone with her hypocrisy that she loves me so much and does everything for me but im a self sabotaging person and asks everyone to sympathize me(actually driving them to disrespect me and ignore whatever i say infront of my mother's pathetic personality because they want to make me a man that takes care of my poor mother while actually im the only man in this family that knows how to take care of himself and others without being toxic and reflect negatively on others) this actually had a most fatal impact on me recently since the doctor that supervised me on the psychward that also happens to manage the hospital's misdiagnose and new disrespect towards me after being with my mother for a few minutes he started to look on me like a pile of meat while long ago he scolded her for being a hypocritical bitch but this time i was no longer seeking to suicide so he just went along with emotions towards my mother, and the problem is that now im wanted by the government to serve in the syrian army while im actually mentally unfit for service since i turn into a psycho when i get controlled, so good job for her she has successfully made probably the only person in the entire country that actually has the rarest attributes leadership/alpha traits reach a dead end
all the misery i went through on my life do not matter to me as i know the cure, my cure is to seek perfections by every aspect, maintain healthy life style and be self-sufficient eventually turning myself into the inspiration everyone seeks advice from, nothing that i cant do already, i still have no future if im to remain in syria and apparently there are not many humans on earth that have a motive in helping someone that sounds like a competitor with so much potential and ambition like myself, thats really how psychological evolution works so even though i hold the ability to cure depressive feelings when they come and know how to live a life worth living out of mine, i probably am going to end up killing myself to protect myself against those that try to use me for i was never blessed with being born somewhere where humanity actually matter

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Although most people have multiple reasons for suicide, if you had to choose your top one what would it be? For me I could tick every box on this so it's really difficult but I guess probably exhaustion would have to win..

My main reason to ctb is to avoid suffering unbearable excruciating pain in the future as in homelessness, starvation or cancer. So i put physical pain as my main reason. imo many humans don't realize how bad pain can really get . Just think of the kind of pain that they suffer when cutting off the fingers. The human body is nothing and half the face can fall off in a car accident and you can still remain alive. Mental pain is also really bad . When a family member dies or a lover breaks up the pain hits and won't stop. It's hard for someone to imagine the kinds of pain i described unless you are actively going through the suffering . We can remember how bad it was but the memory is not comparable to actually suffering the intense pain.

For example if the memory were equivalent to the actually suffering then we can see that many want to commit suicide the pain is so bad after a lover breaks up with them . But if they don't commit suicide then 2 years or whatever time later the person many times doesn't want to commit suicide anymore. You'd think once one knows the kind of suffering the brain can produce why risk that kind of suffering again? As Tolstoy said once you have seen the dragon why continue to taste the honey? i say for what purpose? there is no purpose to life . so why risk cancer, a stroke , or your face falling off in a car accident? i think it's because how bad the suffering really was cannot be replicated with memory or kept in mind to ask why would i risk that kind of pain knowing how fragile the human body is and how much suffering it is capable of producing.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/the-problem-of-life-l-n-tolstoy.55313/

 

[deleted]

Hatred of society and lack of money

 

[Molded foundation]

Freedom

 

[Bone]

mental illness, causing a lot of the other problems on the list

 

[wanttodie]

I hate life and living. and lot of the other problems just want my life to be over

 

[deadverysoon]

i got tortured and cyberbullied because of lies etc for the last two years also my last company involved. they used every information from my past to kill me step by step. also childhood trauma etc.

 

[Dot]

Hypnosis injury leaving self in 24/7 state of severe terror.

 

[ClownMe]

My brain is poop

 

[nerve]

Not interested in living the shitty life that being a severely mentally ill American allows for me.

 

[IanUK]

I'm hanging on because I have an older partner who I don't wish to desert especially as we get older. Once my partner is gone (assuming they go first) I'm going to do it. I'm now 60, I've pretty much opted out if mainstream society and human interaction. My only struggle;e is to decide on the best way. Like everyone, my ideal scenario is a drug overdose; just go to sleep and never wake up. I gave it all planned it's just the method. I've never been a lover of humanity even as a child. The past two years have convinced me of the utter folly and pointlessness of humanity. I loathe our species to the extent that, were it in my power to push the button I would. I've zero desire to prolong a life in this kind of world and in fact the best thing about the 21st century will be the leaving of it.

 

[Rational man]

Serious pain and loss of autonomy from undiagnosed illness ( probably cancer ) . I enjoyed life before. It could nOt have been much better. Now im just a ghost, stu ck in a physical form.

for me this is not living. This is torture.

 

[Chockles]

I've had mild mental health issues all my life & chronic physical pain the last 8 years but the electric bolts giunf up & down my limbs, my motor neuron symptoms like cut off eustachian tubes & choking on my own phlegm leaving me bed ridden 9 months in agony I have had enough. Death is the only answer.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

My dopamine and serotonin levels are high I don´t know how it feels to be depressive. I had a good life but now I am old and want to cut off the tail of my life that is not worth living.

Furthermore, I am a masochist and have death fantasies all my life. Of course, this is no reason for suicide because I can only enjoy these fantasies when I am alive. By means of non-lethal hanging I could flirt with death many times. Now my perversion will help me to enjoy my last day. My only problem: I still have the feeling that I could miss something.

 

[downbad]

Exhausted of life and my brain is not great

 

[endthispain]

Severe treatment resistant depression
Tried everything. I was a functioning person until trauma switched something off in brain. Within a week full on severe depression. I do don't know what was happening. That was year and half ago. Been in hospital since January. I would like to have dignity in dying for mental health. My doctor has no idea. She actually said is it that you don't want to get better. I said would you say that to a cancer patient? I have no energy, no joy, barley talk don't sleep well even with pills. Living in unbearable. If I had fight in me o would fight for the mentally ill to obtain the right to die. Adam Clayton did that, he is at peace now but used N.
before I got sick I never would have agreed with the right to die for mentally ill because I have no idea the depths or other diagnosis.

 

[wereqryan]

Health problems.

 

[Ch92921]

Health problems.

Health problems are VERY good reason for ctb. I dont like these Christians who say God has its explanation for your disease. Its BS.

 

[IDK:/]

Exhausted of life
Mindset

 

[ikadasui]

Ugly, stuck in skin I hate with all my being, rotten brain that can't even write properly anymore and retains no information, ruined health and teeth from and ED, and no education. I'm a complete genetic dead end and should never have seen the light of day in the first place