What would your last thoughts be?

[healthrecovery]

Before you CTB

 

[ddd1234]

"I fucked me life"

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I can't believe this is really happening.

 

[stellabelle]

"Hope they're happy now."

 

[noname223]

I think I will/would be in panic mode. I am so scared (to fail)

 

[FuneralCry]

My last thoughts will be hoping the method is successful and that I will never have to live another day of this horrible life.

 

[stellabelle]

I think I will/would be in panic mode. I am so scared (to fail)

If it's of any use to you, the panic and physical discomfort is the shitty part, the unconscious part is nothingness, no fear there, and then waking up with a "failed" attempt is the most disappointing.
Only to see the ugly people you hate and be dumped back to them.

To "play pretend" as if it ever "got better." Then you get away from them, and they break you again.

And again. And again. And you only hope that they wind up in absolute misery and despair.

Or they finally kick the bucket and things get "better" or "worse" - people fuck you over so many times that you hate them and decide you hope the worst for them and their entire families.

Invasiveness and LIES.
People say blood relatives should "love" their abusers or be drawn to them even when they've proven themselves to be selfish little fucking cunts.

well oh well.

 

[Lady black]

My biggest dream comes true

 

[dyingalone123]

May God and my kids forgive me. I think that every day as it is.

They will readysteady. Anyone in your state - would do the same!!!!! They'll understand!!! Whether it's today or one day when they experience pain - they'll know.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I can't believe this is really happening.

When I tried to hang my self, I passed out and then woke up thinking this…" It's really happening. I'm going to die."

 

[luten]

well my breath stopped twice in the past. I was unable to move or breathe for a split second or so. What happened during those moments, I saw images of my life ; not good ones. it was like a montage. I felt an immense feeling of regret.

I guess this would be different, because I know what is going to happen, before it came naturally, I did not cause it.

 

[rationaltake]

In my imagination

May you be happy
May you be free from suffering
(To me and the world)

Or maybe

Oh well at least I don't need to buy any more deodorant

I actually have no idea.

 

[Beachygirl]

my dreams have finally come true

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

My last thoughts when I already hang: "My vision becomes gritty, I am going to pass o........."

 

[beingzettt]

"Hope they're happy now."

Stella you shared your story with me in the funeral post and you have gone through alot, I don't accept that you will be thinking about those morons in your last moments. You're nice person and I know you will be in peace in your last breath

 

[canna2]

"I fucking hate parents with all my heart. If there were no laws I would find many and fk with them as much as I could. But god forbid laws hindering me in that regard"

"fking pieces of shit human beings parents are. Disgusting pieces of cockroaches. All Parents Deserves a slow and painful death.

"Wish I could A2M a parent RN" ....

Damn too many thoughts about parents haha ;D

 

[Panna]

my next life can finally begin

 

[Snake of Eden]

To all who have answered this question. Do you really think you would have control over what are your last thoughts going to be??

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

To all who have answered this question. Do you really think you would have control over what are your last thoughts going to be??

In that circumstance, absolutely not. If my exit were peaceful and sleepy… I'm guessing I would feel a mix of relief, melancholy, and maybe some fear…

 

[Helpless77]

Probably: "Damn that rope on my neck hurts"

 

[Aeathelina]

I'm so sorry I couldn't be the daughter you wanted

 

[Pisceslilith]

"Wow, I'm really about to die"

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Probably something along the lines of "I can't believe I fucked up my life to this point, and this is how it all ends", while thinking about loved ones and crying

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

Perhaps something concise or snarky like
"Finally" or
"See you on the other side"
Or maybe I'll just distract myself thinking about what used to bring me joy before my chronic illness, and try to visualize what it was like.
Either way, I'd prefer my last thoughts to not be distressing or bring me anymore emotional pain. I've already had to bear enough and I don't want to spend my final "big break" doing anymore of that. The day I CTB, should be fully about making me as comfortable as possible since it's not an easy decision for me to make, rather, it's a necessary one.

 

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"should i do a flip?"

 

[Deadweight]

I'll probably be coaching myself. I know SI will kick in, C0 or suspension are my only viable options due to where I live, so there will be a waiting period for unconsciousness. The last thing I want to happen is to be overwhelmed by panic, and decide to abort but find I can't get myself out. It would suck to die in a state of panic. I'll have to be on top of my thoughts and self-talk.

 

[Eddypaddy]

I would wish to not puke and think about the afterlife. I hope god and my family will forgive me.

 

[solid_snake]

Either: "Fuck." or "Finally."

 

[Dot]

Pre trror

 

[layne2001]

Freedom! I think no matter how desperate I get I'll ultimately be genuinely so happy inside lol