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Sakura94

empty
Nov 26, 2020
673
Each time as you drift off to sleep I think a lot of us here just wish to not wake up at all. But sometimes you just try to imagine you're not gonna wake up to the same old self/body?
what would you like to see when you wake up?
Another life completely ?
waking up in the past before any problems began?
Non-existence?
 
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Mors

Mors

Member
Jul 24, 2021
28
I'd like to wake up on May 20, 2021: the day before the surgery that has completely and irreversibly ruined my life.

However, I know that it's more plausible for me to just not wake up one day. I wouldn't mind that because it's better than this life now.

What about you? What's your answer to your question?
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
2,516
If I could wake up to the government deciding to give disabled people a livable income instead of leaving us below the poverty line that'd be fucking peachy,
 
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Sadism

Sadism

Member
Oct 11, 2021
19
It doesn't matter. Wishful thinking isn't gonna magically make it happen, it will only make my pain even more brutal as it already is.
 
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Smart No More

Visionary
May 5, 2021
2,726
I'd like to wake up on May 20, 2021: the day before the surgery that has completely and irreversibly ruined my life.

However, I know that it's more plausible for me to just not wake up one day. I wouldn't mind that because it's better than this life now.

What about you? What's your answer to your question?
Do you mind me asking.... What surgery did you have? No pressure for an answer if you prefer not to divulge. :)
 
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deflationary

deflationary

Fussy exister. Living in the epilogue
Mar 11, 2020
529
Waking up and realizing that the past two or so years were all a dream and that my ex is still alive (and healthy). Some mornings it does feel like that for a moment, until I get my bearings.
 
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WrongPlaceWrongTime

WrongPlaceWrongTime

Better never to have been
Jul 4, 2021
694
Wake up in a cabin on a floating island in the sky, with no people and therefore no responsibilities or obligations to worry about.
 
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PatheticCase

Member
Oct 12, 2021
29
Wake up to at least five years ago, back to when I actually looked forward to each morning.
 
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Deleted member 10090

Guest
wake up a few years before i had chronic pain, so many things have changed because of it
 
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Laddydragon

Laddydragon

Member
May 16, 2021
27
Wake up in a cabin in the middle of nowhere plenty of animals around though to keep me company and my past cat I used to be with.
I hope that's what happens when I pass I suppose
 
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Passersby

Passersby

Trapped in space and time
Aug 29, 2019
1,655
I would like to wake up to the time before my problems started. Now it's too late. My body is damaged. I would also like to wake up after a good nights sleep for once but I've always hated waking up and the mornings my whole life. Always hated it big time. Always felt terrible amd never myself until after lunch. The real scary thought is that I might not ever get relief EVER even through death. I know for sure too that I won't ever have relief in this my current physical life . :'(
 
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lucid

lucid

antinatalist specialist
Jun 29, 2019
177
Right now, at this very moment, I want to wake up in a bed with someone else holding me.
 
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Apricity

Apricity

Wizard
Jul 27, 2021
642
I'd like to wake up to @hotelbeneathground serving me breakfast in bed. Since that won't happen, I'd like to wake up on the first day of my relationship with my wife and start over.
 
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NotStrongEnough

NotStrongEnough

Nihilist extraordinaire
Oct 3, 2021
85
I can't find an answer other than "nothing". I can't remember a time where I didn't want to not be alive. If I could pick anything, it'd probably be my current "situation" with more money. And less broken brain.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,560
Eternal nothingness
 
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hlynn95

hlynn95

Anxious Loner
Oct 2, 2021
44
To my ex lover miraculously returning to my life. That he somehow realizes what he lost in me and wants me back. That is just wishful thinking but I recently got my heart broken and am so depressed. It's frustrating cuz there's nothing I can do to control it, as we cannot make other people like us. Rejection truly stings! :'(
 
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PeacefulTonic

Enlightened
Aug 10, 2021
1,004
I'd do anything to wake up to exactly 3 months ago. As long as I have memories and know not to fuck up this time, I'd be the happiest guy in the world
 
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Ednospatient

Arcanist
Sep 2, 2021
408
Probably a blowjob
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,622
2004/5
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
I'd like to wake up to @hotelbeneathground serving me breakfast in bed. Since that won't happen,

You have my permission to fantasize about it anyway :))

I'd like to wake up on the first day of my relationship with my wife and start over.

I wish your wife would come back to her senses & realize what a great guy you are :aw:
 
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Apricity

Apricity

Wizard
Jul 27, 2021
642
You have my permission to fantasize about it anyway :))



I wish your wife would come back to her senses & realize what a great guy you are :aw:
Awww :heart:
Btw, I could look like this guy for all you know U want candy i give u my lollipop
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
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Apricity

Apricity

Wizard
Jul 27, 2021
642
:haha: Even he is allowed to fantasize about me, I'm generous that way. He can even have my lollipop for 15 minutes for $50 if I'm allowed to close my eyes :))
Can I get 50 minutes for $15 though? I'm currently unemployed.
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
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Sakura94

empty
Nov 26, 2020
673
I'd like to wake up on May 20, 2021: the day before the surgery that has completely and irreversibly ruined my life.

However, I know that it's more plausible for me to just not wake up one day. I wouldn't mind that because it's better than this life now.

What about you? What's your answer to your question?

Probably just another life even though any timeline will turn into the dystopia we have now.
 
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Painless_end

Painless_end

Life is too difficult for me
Oct 11, 2019
794
I would like to not wake up at all.

My desire to live does not exist at all.
 
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Zzzzz

Zzzzz

Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
Aug 8, 2018
879
A different life sometimes sounds nice tbh. But non-existence sounds alright too.
 
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existtosuffer

existtosuffer

Student
Sep 22, 2021
150
I would like to wake up not having an incurable Brain disorder.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,628
I hope to never wake again. There is nothing that I would ever want to wake to. I do not want any kind of life, I want absolutely nothing to do with life. The only thing I want is to not exist.
 
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Neni

New Member
Oct 15, 2021
3
My dog passed away last year and I have this fantasy that I wake up and am reunited with him. After lots of cuddles, we lie down together. All my pain goes away, the heavy, overwhelming feeling lifts and only good memories are left. Then everything fades away, it's just me and my dog and we know nothing but peace.
 
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