Due to the recent event I considered to leave the forum. The investigations are scary as fuck. I am pretty sure I never encouraged anyone. I rather told people it is not a good idea to drink acid or to self-immolate. Sometimes I even told them it is not good to ctb for this or that reason because sometimes the problems are really solvable. Though if you do something like that you should not act like the problems were not that bad.
I am kind of addicted to the forum. I am so lonely, so desperate and suicide is for me even in positive times many hours a day in my mind. I think I won't stop visiting the forum.
Though I thought about the alternatives.
Like in the past visiting other mental health forums. The big problem with them is if you speak openly about the wish to die you get so many dumb comments. I was once in a psychosis forum (with many really insane conspiracy theorists). I made a thread about how to get assisted suicide. They treated me like dirt or me as the insane one.
I hate so dumb comments they really hurt. Here on SS this is like a safe space.
I was once in another suicide forum but it is not active anymore.
I think I would be desperate enough to either join a pro-life suicide forum (and avoid to speak about my most inner feelings) or I would even consider to go to the deep web. I would be kind of scared to do that. I think in such a forum there would be probably many suspicious people and I would feel further criminalized.
However if SS would just change from the clear to deep web I would consider it. But I do not like that idea too much.
So let's hope Democrats and republicans never make a deal about section 230.
I am kind of addicted to the forum. I am so lonely, so desperate and suicide is for me even in positive times many hours a day in my mind. I think I won't stop visiting the forum.
Though I thought about the alternatives.
Like in the past visiting other mental health forums. The big problem with them is if you speak openly about the wish to die you get so many dumb comments. I was once in a psychosis forum (with many really insane conspiracy theorists). I made a thread about how to get assisted suicide. They treated me like dirt or me as the insane one.
I hate so dumb comments they really hurt. Here on SS this is like a safe space.
I was once in another suicide forum but it is not active anymore.
I think I would be desperate enough to either join a pro-life suicide forum (and avoid to speak about my most inner feelings) or I would even consider to go to the deep web. I would be kind of scared to do that. I think in such a forum there would be probably many suspicious people and I would feel further criminalized.
However if SS would just change from the clear to deep web I would consider it. But I do not like that idea too much.
So let's hope Democrats and republicans never make a deal about section 230.
