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What would it take to change your mind to not ctb?
Thread starterCheemo
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I think for me it would be to get rid of this negative thinking and self loathing. It's so hard though. It's been like this all my life. It's like teaching your brain that blue is now red. I plan to do dbt (dialectical behavioral therapy) soon and hopefully that helps..
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SpinTop555, BeansOfRequirement, Ozzyos and 9 others
I think like others have said and what leads many people here.. time travel.. so much. nothing I did either things that happened TO me I would've protected myself or avoided
I do not know honestly. I think suicidal thoughts are a part of me no matter what. The thing is even if I got rid of some of my problems, like health ones and I could erase some memories, I still probably would want to ctb. Life itself is the problem for me and I do not want to live for many decades and reach old age. I simply do not like living, it is all just so pointless.
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SpinTop555, pthnrdnojvsc, Winklemate and 7 others
Hmm I think I always want to ctb... Maybe if my life is somehow happier and I'm with guy who feels right to me (yeah feeling love is important to me) I don't want to do it yet, but that is never going to happen so...
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SpinTop555, NoMoreMorbidity, Huntfish34 and 3 others
if i were able to live without going to school/work and still have all the money i need, so i could move to a coastal town and spend the days painting and playing piano and traveling and exploring nature and baking and just having fun :(
if i were skinny and pretty
if i had close friends
if climate change miraculously disappeared and the environment was guaranteed to always be good
if societal issues were fixed (economic inequality, white supremacy, imperialism, etc)
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Pisceslilith, Huntfish34, thankgodfor and 3 others
The impossible, to be able to be myself and be accepted. To have meaning a purpose (have this and losing that right now) to matter, knowing i'd be missed that someone who matters to me (very rarely do i feel the risk is worth this) that their life's happier and better because I'm there. Not the usual me just getting used. Why i always end up alone and lonely.
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SpinTop555, Кот, Winklemate and 3 others
I don't understand. Things seem to be going well for you? Are you bored? Do you have chronic depression? Just curious, not trying to be pushy or anything.
there is no point in life like you said but why end it early if it's going ok?
If someone gifted me an animal sanctuary to own and run and I had suddenly a hot bf/husband to help me run it. If I could somehow go back in time and keep the pets I had to depart from...If suddenly my head/brain would stop hurting like a constant never-ending hangover.
Money in the bank to last...and to lose weight and wake up to an awesome wardrobe.
The life I wanted with the circumstances I wanted. Problem is, this has become a nihilistic and existential decision as much as it was due to depression. So I guess, nothing. Sad af.
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SpinTop555, FuneralCry, Winklemate and 4 others
Maybe with different brain chemistry I'd be happier, but that's not even a guarantee. As of this moment, I cannot imagine anything that would convince me to live. If I had a billion dollars, I'd use it as bribery for the best euthanasia cocktail, and someone to administer it to me to ensure that my death is painless.
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SpinTop555, demuic, Winklemate and 2 others
If I was born with a different body. If my family would accept me for who I am and my beliefs. If the world and people stopped being so shit and so unpredictable. If getting help wasn't so expensive.
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Lemonandlime, Winklemate, Cheemo and 1 other person
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