What would be your preferred stage of life?

[Emillss]

I can't really fully answer this since I'm still very young, but if I had the choice to, I'd probably start my life from where I am now (I've just recently turned 18). I don't want to relive the abuse I went through in childhood years. I don't want to relive the abuse I experienced during my childhood. There were many bad decisions I made in 2021-2022 that have affected me and will likely stay with me for the rest of my life

 

[FoxSauce]

None

 

[Zyntkalla]

For me, it would be when I was like six or seven. My whole life has been s***. I always struggled when I was in public school. High school I just didn't care anymore. I did feel that way when I was younger too, but it didn't really show up until high school. Around when I was twenty two to twenty seven it was better but not the way I i wanted it to be. Then around 28, my issue started to come back. And ever since it's just getting worse, and it's just getting harder and harder to deal with the stuff I am going through again.

My main reason why I want to go back to that age is so I could make the decision to just end my life. If I knew that was an option, I would have done it then. It's my biggest regret and the second regret is I wish I never started having hope. It would have made my decision to leave this world behind a lot more easier. And I would have already been gone by now. But I gotta get a few things done first before I CTB. I am giving myself 2-6 years. Should be gone by 35 or 36.

And if it was my choice, I would have wished to never been born. I would have been much happier if it didn't happen.