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reticulator

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Jan 24, 2026
54
If my bipolar disorder and major depression were miraculously cured it would probably help a bit. But I'd still be stuck with the choices I made while I had these mental diseases so maybe not
 
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ReadyToLeave

Member
Sep 20, 2020
22
Winning the lottery. I know it brings a ton of headaches with it also, but l rather be miserable and rich then miserable and poor. I would finally be able to escape manufacturing machine and have an actual life again.
 
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xBrialesana

xBrialesana

Become Dust With Me, My Love.
Dec 17, 2019
578
Lobotomy maybe if it didn't go wrong lol
 
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Cyc

It's my fight and I choose to surrender.
Jan 22, 2026
171
No sexual trauma and parents who actually know how to raise their child

I genuinely don't think anything else could make me want to live. It's unlikely I'll get any help anytime soon (thank you NHS for taking me off the CBT waiting list for no reason after 6 months), and most people are unable to empathise with what I've been through. No matter how good my life gets I always either feel this sense of emptiness or I get flashbacks/nightmares to my trauma
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Wizard
Jul 3, 2025
669
Another chance. I want a reset completely from the beginning but this time I want a functioning peaceful family, parents who are worth it to have a child who do things to help his child to make him able to have a life one day not bastards who destroy him and then wonder why he suffers so much and act like idiots who can't accept the obvious thing: their failure .
 
iset

iset

Member
Nov 28, 2024
37
completely erase my past and an new situation for my present ---- not possible.
 
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camusfan_ig

camusfan_ig

Member
Nov 11, 2025
44
Finding inner peace I suppose. I know that's a very vague term lol, but I truly mean it. One of the main reasons I'm still holding on is the chance to achieve this some day
 
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awfullymorbid

awfullymorbid

medieval dragon slayer
Jan 30, 2026
19
I honestly don't want anything other than death, which is why its so difficult to help myself.
 

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