What was your straw that broke the camel's back?

[Jess]

Mine was getting brain damage. What was yours?

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

That's a big straw, I'm still waiting for mine. Could be literally breaking my back from deadlifting without recovering enough.

 

[drune11]

I have had severe anxieties my entire life. Something happened in 2014 where they caused me to fuck something up again by being afraid and I realized that I'd never be able to overcome them and because of that, I'd never be able to have a fulfilling life since I'd never be able to pursue what I want.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me the problem is life itself. Life is suffering and there is nothing good about being alive. I have been suicidal since a young age and I have never wanted anything to do with life. For me there is no specific cause or event which made me suicidal. Just being alive makes me want to die. Things were hopeless from the start. As the years have gone by I have became even more tired of living. Nothing would ever make me want to live.

 

[finalexit]

I don't know. Life in general and all of its sufferings

 

[Belljar]

Legal issues and debt

 

[Jess]

For me the problem is life itself. Life is suffering and there is nothing good about being alive. I have been suicidal since a young age and I have never wanted anything to do with life. For me there is no specific cause or event which made me suicidal. Just being alive makes me want to die. Things were hopeless from the start. As the years have gone by I have became even more tired of living. Nothing would ever make me want to live.

Yeah. Life is shit indeed. It's funny how people talk about other's misfortunes. Like they don't even realize it's a bad thing that happened. Like it's just an interesting story to say. I guess that's what you need to enjoy life. Not give a shit about other's misfortunes

 

[justsurrender]

My brother ctbing

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

GF ditched me. As a result, I did not sleep for an entire month which led me to panic selling $ in the stock market and losing lots of it. Left my life in ruins. Oops.

 

[Beeper]

The 3rd episode of manic psychosis was what did me in. It was more severe and lasted longer than what I had experienced in the past.

I destroyed my finances, lost my job, ruined relationships, got into legal trouble and made a fool of myself. Everything I have worked for has been destroyed.

I'm now stuck in a depressive episode that is further multiplied by the realization that I destroyed my life.

I have always had an element of self-hatred before the manic episodes, but this has now been raised off the charts.

I really don't know what to do to pick up the pieces. I've been trying medication, therapy, and support groups. Nothing seems to break the ice. I actually think the medication is making the depression worse. I feel like crap all the time.

I am fortunate that I have a supportive family, but I feel like a serious burden. Moping around all the time in a depressive trance can take a toll on other people.

All I really do any more is swim in my own pity pot. What used to be a reasonable life is now garbage. I might give it another week or two with a new counselor and see if I get calls back on the jobs I recently applied to. I want to believe that I can get better, that things will work out.

Best wishes to you all.

 

[bad luck]

That's a big straw, I'm still waiting for mine. Could be literally breaking my back from deadlifting without recovering enough.

how much do you lift?
Job insecurity, many pills for years, chronic major depression ... You get tired of this life

 

[mold]

one of my first friends in high school passed away, it all went downhill from there

 

[noname223]

Tbh there was not something like this. Years ago I thought it was my first psychosis but I have learned that I was manic years ago. This was caused by bullying/mistreatment as child or teenager. SOothe path was clear since a very young age. I think I showed signs of mental illness when I was 7. No teachers gave a fuck. They all believed my mom would be an angel. I cried DAILY (really daily) in school. Noone wondered.

 

[BabyFears]

Despite life being a b*tch itself,
Mine would be my best friend calling me selfish and not a good friend basically because I didn't reach out while she ignored my texts and left me on read for weeks. It broke my heart

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

how much do you lift?

Not much, like 140kg. If anything, it's more likely that my bench will cause injury since I'm actually strong on that one. And then it's most likely a shoulder injury instead of a lower back injury.

 

[deathLiberation]

The system. I just went on a path of discovery and my eyes were opened to all the shit.
I cant get back to the old life, the lies dont fit anymore, i got redpilled and it´s hard.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Struggles with employment and education, over and over, ongoing even as of today. Eventually I realised this never-ending battle was way too much pain than it could ever be worth.

 

[Toonloon]

The moment I realized nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I charge.

 

[LonelyBrazilian]

The moment I realized nothing will ever get better no matter how hard I charge.

Same.
Also, everything in society and nature is about competition. I don't want to be a part of it. It's an endless rat race

 

[yive]

i realised that i simply don't want to suffer, don't want to work, don't want to be another slave to the system, don't want to be sexually frustrated all my life, don't want to be an old man etc. i realised that life is just a cruel and bloody survival game (that inevitably ends in death), ppl are shit and there is nothing to do here.

of course life itself is the problem, it is just unnecessary pain and nothing more

 

[bad luck]

Not much, like 140kg. If anything, it's more likely that my bench will cause injury since I'm actually strong on that one. And then it's most likely a shoulder injury instead of a lower back injury.

Not bad. Is a good exercise

 

[Un-]

My mind broke.

 

[motel rooms]

The camels whose backs broke are no longer with us.
@Darkover What's funny about OP suffering brain damage?

 

[Painless_end]

When the moment of truth came, I found out that I was fundamentally flawed.

I struggled and fought, but my flaws are nearly fatal.

 

[Itsallover123]

My pc broke. I was already planning on CTB before it happened, but this just made me want to do it sooner. It was the last thing that brought me any happiness.

 

[Insomniac]

when I started contemplating ideas like genocide (on elders, I hate older people, or more like I hate the power they have over younger generations) or other cold rationalistic ideas to solve humanity issues.

That's when I realized that if someone like me can even consider these things, then humanity is doomed and we're condemned to reproduce the same mistakes as our parents, grand-parents and ancestors. There's just no escape to war. no limit to suffering.

I also considered having a child just for the sense of accomplishment it'd provide me. That was the last straw. I was willing to sacrifice a life for a sense of accomplishment.

That's how I know suicide is the reasonable answer.

 

[Rational man]

Lack of medical.help.for.potentially.curable physical condition.. Pain.is.soul.destroying

 

[Ch92921]

Ugly face, no future no love lonliness

When the moment of truth came, I found out that I was fundamentally flawed.

I copy that because its also so for me.

 

[Insomniac]

Lack of medical.help.for.potentially.curable physical condition.. Pain.is.soul.destroying

sorry for asking, but what is your condition? (I'm just curious)

 

[Rational man]

sorry for asking, but what is your condition? (I'm just curious)

sorry for asking, but what is your condition? (I'm just curious)

Hashimoto's, autoimmune disease. Paralysed gut which isnt responding well to treatment.

Lack of medical.help.for.potentially.curable physical condition.. Pain.is.soul.destroying