What time of day are you at your worst?

[Caspers]

I was wondering what is the worst time of the day for negative/CTB thoughts? Any reason why?

 

[Good4Nothing]

Morning. Because I'm still alive and I have to put up with life's bullshit another day.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

It could be any time of the day

 

[greebo6]

Morning. Because I'm still alive and I have to put up with life's bullshit another day.

Agree. Me too.

 

[Blurred_Reality]

Definitely morning. That feeling when you realise you have to drag your body/mind through another day is just too much.

 

[deleted]

morning i hate having to deal with my family, but saturday and sunday is hell all day

 

[Ghost2211]

Evenings when I'm burned out from the day.

 

[Valon]

At night when I'm alone with my thoughts.

 

[Life_and_Death]

when its dark although im not 100% sure why

 

[BipolarGuy]

when its dark although im not 100% sure why

SAME!

Late at night/early hours (like now). Dark. Maybe slightly cold. About to go to sleep.
Perhaps because there are similarities with how it will be when the time comes.

 

[Life_and_Death]

SAME!

Late at night/early hours (like now). Dark. Maybe slightly cold. About to go to sleep.
Perhaps because there are similarities with how it will be when the time comes.

its probably because ive always been scared of the dark. i hated being outside after dark and refused to be alone. i slept on my parents floor most nights until i was 11. ive always needed a nightlight. and ever since i was really little (4-6 i cant say the exact age it started idk) ive always had hallucinations mostly at night. the dark has always been bad for me and i cant escape it

 

[Panna]

Morning, it's a symbol of yet another day that I have to trudge through, but the evening and the night is the best time to be alive. The day's over, all your chances for stress is essentially gone, the jerks and oppressors are asleep, and you have all that wonderful free time to yourself. Enjoying the shadows of the dying sun, walking through the dead streets at around 3 or 4 when it's extremely rare to see any cars out. Maybe stay up all night in the peace of your room with vidya. Evening will be the time that I will ultimately ctb since it is such a wonderous time to be alive.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I guess the worst time is during the morning because you wake up and see you're still alive. You have another day ahead dealing with all your problems. It's the worst of the feelings. Instead of night, you go to sleep to forget for a while this shitty reality (it's like you're temporarily dead).

 

[LonelyNick]

It's so hard to fall asleep alone in a big bed

 

[AJ95]

Night time for me, when I'm all alone

 

[YellowSneakers]

Sometimes a jolt of anxiety crashes over me as soon as I get up & I know it's going to be a bad day. But usually it's a slow buildup until the nighttime. Tons of suicidal ideation at night.

 

[Thinking]

At night when I'm alone with my thoughts.

Me too

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

nighttime, right before going to sleep. there's no distractions to help me push these thoughts to the back of my mind. it's just me, my thoughts, and the dark.

 

[TheQ22]

I guess I'm more reactive and feel good or crap depending on what happened moment by moment. Strangely some minor things effect me a lot, and some potentially major things hardly effect me at all.

I guess that just means my wiring is back to front, upside down, or I'm a mentalist.

 

[ooglare2]

as soon as i open my eyes. it's the peak of a nightmare

 

[melancholy_lily]

Night, 100% for me. Maybe it's because I've already had a few drinks by then, maybe it's because I'm tired and can't distract anymore from suicidal thoughts and reliving all my worst/most embarrassing/awkward moments while trying to sleep. Definitely have my strongest thoughts and plans at night.

 

[k75]

I'm plagued with the thoughts all the time, but I think they're darkest at night. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's just that I have less distractions?

But I've noticed everything is always more intense at night. Like if I am sick with a cold or something, it always feels worse the later it gets. I've always wondered why, but I never bother to look that up.

 

[LastWhisper]

Night and morning. Probably because I busy with nothing at that time and many many thoughts are coming to my mind that are in 99% as result to become more suicidal.

 

[DeathNoot]

Night, I think too much when I'm trying to sleep

 

[RottenDeer]

It depends. On some days, I am at the worst in the morning. Most of the time, I have a bad phase in the afternoon.

 

[Shades of Grey]

Often in the morning, thinking about having to go to work.

When things get bad at night, there are things I can do to force sleep and effectively shut it off for a while. But when it's really bad first thing in the morning, and I know that I have to go be productive, "on", and feign happiness all day, and that CTB is not an option... it's bad.

 

[Infinite Conscious]

Since I don't sleep for days at a time, sometimes weeks, days last 24 hours and there is no escape.
The worst are the mornings, when the fuss starts outside... while I have no strength or will to get up.
Nights are OK, peaceful... but the 'thoughts' are there all the time.

 

[okaoki]

5pm~6+Pm and 9Pm and beyond , this is where i'll never have the time to be relax , and its everyday
sometimes even trying no matter how hard you tried , the outcome are the same.

 

[grungeCat]

Morning as I always realise I didn't die while sleeping. Every evening I hope it's gonna be my last one.

 

[Midnight-rain]

It reaches its peak every morning without fail. I don't want to get out of bed and go to work. I'm overwhelmed by the fact that I can't ctb yet and that I have hundreds of more mornings to get to before I can realistically get my bus ticket.