What the hell is wrong with me

[Water-Lily]

Today is Sunday

10:55 am to be exact

I wake up lifeless and confused

A day in the life of Borderline Personality Disorder

Do I work out, or do I not?

Do I stay in and realx?

Or beat myself up for not dong anything?

I am fat and ugly

My hair seems thinner

I am tired but can't sleep

And at the center of everything, I want to die

To die

To

Die

I don't know how I will make it

Sadly, I am not ready to die yet

If I was it would have been easy

Someone, please help me

 

[Initiated]

Why do you want to die? Can you tell precisely?

 

[Water-Lily]

Why do you want to die? Can you tell precisely?

It tied into a lot of things, but what it comes down to is habit. Thanks to my abusive bitch mom I have been struggling with these thoughts since I was 13. So jumping to suicide, along with my own self hatred, comes second nature

 

[WornOutLife]

I feel the same as you! I mean, I just don't know what to do and I really don't feel like doing anything.
It's even my b-day today, I have a terrible hangover and I'm suicidal as usual lol

Anyway, why don't you watch any tv show to relax a bit? I'm watching Cobra Kai 3! It's awesome!

 

[Water-Lily]

I feel the same as you! I mean, I just don't know what to do and I really don't feel like doing anything.
It's even my b-day today, I have a terrible hangover and I'm suicidal as usual lol

Anyway, why don't you watch any tv show to relax a bit? I'm watching Cobra Kai 3! It's awesome!

I'm making some hot cocoa with a tomato and cheese sandwich. Gonna eat it while playing higurashi lol

 

[Wrennie]

I'm making some hot cocoa with a tomato and cheese sandwich. Gonna eat it while playing higurashi lol

Oh my God I love Higurashi. Literally the only game that cheers me up when I'm feeling miserable... maybe because all of the characters are also in a miserable situation lol.

I hope you feel better! And that sandwich sounds delicious.

 

[Water-Lily]

Oh my God I love Higurashi. Literally the only game that cheers me up when I'm feeling miserable... maybe because all of the characters are also in a miserable situation lol.

I hope you feel better! And that sandwich sounds delicious.

Thank you. Ugh my brother is arguing with my dad. I swear I wish that kid would leave the house and never come back

 

[Wrennie]

Thank you. Ugh my brother is arguing with my dad. I swear I wish that kid would leave the house and never come back

Living with family can be utterly exhausting... I feel your pain. I wish I had the funds to live independently. Is that something foreseeable in your future?