What stops you...

[Noodlebug]

What stops you from going through with CTB?
The thought of what it will do to my family is what stops me, but I'm not sure how much longer I can carry on for.

 

[rt1989526]

Fear of failure. Pain. That's it.

 

[timetofly]

My sister. I'll leave her all alone and she's in a difficult situation right now, it will be tough for her. I'm waiting till her situation improves or till I can't take it anymore.

 

[Shades of Grey]

I have a geriatric cat that I hand-reared from birth when I was younger. (Bottle baby.) Nearing two decades, not in particularly good health anymore. He's had a happy existence despite some medical challenges, and I don't want it to end on that note. So I have chosen to wait until his time comes.

(It's not that I don't care about the impact my suicide may have on human loved ones... I've just reached the point where I can't continue living for others anymore.)

 

[almost_dead]

I wanna sleep with my crush

 

[Noodlebug]

I have dogs, they are another reason not to CTB.

 

[Ghost2211]

Family.

 

[Noodlebug]

Family.

It's tough isn't it.

 

[Ghost2211]

It's tough isn't it.

Yeah, very. Taking it one day at a time helps, as well as reminding yourself why you keep doing it. Hard to say how long we can live solely for the sake of others.

 

[Ramirez]

my cowardice does. I literally have nothing LOL.

 

[Rn110bg101]

Not having any reliable method is the main thing.
I'm trying to wait until my next birthday as well, see if my friend will come back… But I doubt they will, so it's not as much of a stop as the other thing.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I'm in a situation in which I can't ctb. Won't go into details. I can't do it. It's what I most like to do but I have to stay. In the meantime I research about methods.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Still trying to find the ideal method. And yes I know "ideal" doesn't exist because they all have disadvantages.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

It changes. It's usually thinking about my mother or my husband. Sometimes it's a faint glimmer of hope for the future. Sometimes it's fear of pain.

 

[Noodlebug]

It changes. It's usually thinking about my mother or my husband. Sometimes it's a faint glimmer of hope for the future. Sometimes it's fear of pain.

I get this, it is like a constant wave of change

 

[BPD Barbie]

It's a combination of things. Fear of failure as failing opens up a new can of worms I'm not willing to deal with. My mother, it will destroy her. I also, when I have mania, feel like things can get better which is stupid.

 

[mxEll]

Like many others it is the fear of failure that stops me. There's also a strong feeling of not wanting to be seen as a quitter, which is part of the problem in the first place - putting too much stock in to what others think of me.

I'm in a situation in which I can't ctb. Won't go into details. I can't do it. It's what I most like to do but I have to stay. In the meantime I research about methods.

What a coincidence, nice avatar

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

What a coincidence, nice avatar

The Myth of Sisyphus!

 

[TheSoundofTime]

What stops you from going through with CTB?
The thought of what it will do to my family is what stops me, but I'm not sure how much longer I can carry on for.

Deep question and so simple that you hardly think of this.... thank you for that
I think what stops me is a small hope that I can still make this life work.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i still haven't got everything i need to ctb, and i'm waiting for a good opportunity to do it.

i have my little sister, and i'd like to spend some more time with her in order to leave her with some good memories of me.

i also have some projects i want to finish, as well as shows/movies that i want to watch.

 

[mpnf]

The dream of my life and my only reason to exist and wait for.

 

[Rue89]

My anxiety, and fears about pain during ctb or failure. I think I'm starting to get over some of that fear though.

 

[mapletree]

Don't have many family members left. It's just me my mom and brother. We've had a lot of death and loss and stuff and I dont want to leave them alone with no support (my mom doesn't have much social support, my brother is a bit better), even though I'm miserable and I'm making them miserable as well. Love them but sometimes I wish they would just like tell me to fuck off so I could leave without worrying about them being sad

also my brain keeps trying to think about what it would be like not to exist, gets caught in a loop, and it freaks me out if I think about the actual feeling of non existence too much in a literal sense

 

[onlyeverexisting]

Don't have many family members left. It's just me my mom and brother. We've had a lot of death and loss and stuff and I dont want to leave them alone with no support (my mom doesn't have much social support, my brother is a bit better), even though I'm miserable and I'm making them miserable as well. Love them but sometimes I wish they would just like tell me to fuck off so I could leave without worrying about them being sad

also my brain keeps trying to think about what it would be like not to exist, gets caught in a loop, and it freaks me out if I think about the actual feeling of non existence too much in a literal sense

Both of these things a thousand times over. Don't want another suicide in the family. My lizard brain wanting to hold onto existence because it can't fathom nonexistence.

Also, if I fail, all it would do is leave me with a medical bill I couldn't hope to pay for the privilege of being hospitalized and kept alive against my will. I love the US "healthcare" system

 

[JAG_78]

Immediate and long term Impact on family and friends.
Waiting for a miracle or trying out promising/miracle solutions that never pan out.
currently waiting for items nessecary to ctb & make it look natural. Probably deluding myself there too but gotta try.