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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
2,297
I'd like to see how much I've spent my life asleep or depressed/suicidal. I wonder how much I've used the Internet and TV. Or see the total number of days that I felt were boring as fuck. How many opportunities I missed that would have made my life better. How many days and moments of my life when or if I was happy versus the days that I wasn't. How many times I've cussed. I'll think of more later.
 
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BipolarGuy

BipolarGuy

Enlightened
Aug 6, 2020
1,456
Not statistics I know, but I'd like to know where each of the atoms that were once a part of my body are now (e.g. that once made up skin cells).

Weird thing, and it's not like I think about this or anything I just thought about it now.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,157
Those are good ones. I've always wondered how much money I've spent on useless shit and drugs. I dunno if I could handle the actual statistics of my life though, talk about depressing.
 
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Deleted member 1465

_
Jul 31, 2018
6,909
How many pints of beer I've had :notsure:
 
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nerve

nerve

fat cringey shut-in
Jun 19, 2019
1,013
How many hours I've spent downloading mods for The Sims......
 
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lostangel

lostangel

Enlightened
Mar 22, 2019
1,051
How many great opportunities I have missed. It would be too depressing for me to handle but I'm curious.
 
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Matthias_k

...
Apr 18, 2020
247
I'd rather not know, it would do more harm than good. The only thing I know for sure is that I've slept half of my life away. That's one good thing at least.
 
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Chupacabra 44

Chupacabra 44

If boredom were a CTB method, I would be long gone
Sep 13, 2020
710
Happy:unhappy
Entertained:bored
Hypomanic/manic:baseline:depressed
 
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Mm80

Mm80

Enlightened
May 15, 2019
1,603
How many hours of my life that ive spent having sex in the missionary position. I can almost guatantee its a lot more than when ive been been the recipient of cow girl
 
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esse_est_percipi

Enlightened
Jul 14, 2020
1,747
My average dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin levels.
I suspect they are very low. My brain may not even produce those chemicals.
 
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degeneratewaste

degeneratewaste

dressed for the grave.
Aug 24, 2020
264
> how many cigarettes smoked
> how many units of alcohol consumed
> how many hours spent crying
> how many spliffs smoked
> how many swear words said
 
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GrumpyFrog

GrumpyFrog

Exhausted
Aug 23, 2020
1,913
I would like to know a number of other people who know/remember who I am. Not sure if this fits.
 
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RottenDeer

RottenDeer

Rotten to the core.
Feb 29, 2020
157
How many steps I walked and how much time I uselessly spent worrying about my weight.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,401
I wanna know how many and which girls actually had a crush on me and which ones did I just assume only seemed like they liked me because of my own hubris.

I also wanna know the amount of each types of food I've consumed because I'm curious. And maybe how many hours I've slept/waited in traffic.
 
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Deleted member 1465

_
Jul 31, 2018
6,909
How many times I have given fuckwits at work a withering stare for being fuckwits that went completely over their head.
 
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Lupgevif

Lupgevif

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Jul 23, 2020
928
How much time I spent watching ads on free-to-play mobile games WILLINGLY in order to get rewards.
 
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Soul

Soul

gate gate paragate parasamgate bodhi svaha
Apr 12, 2019
4,704
The good:wrong that I've done unto others would be very useful to have on the fly.
 
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netrezven

Mage
Dec 13, 2018
516
Time having sex vs time I could have sex if I was cheating. It's silly but the only way to know is imagination or to break my own rules/won't happen/.
 
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Mixo

Mixo

Blue
Aug 2, 2020
777
Since I assume just about everyone hates me, it would be interesting for me to see objectively how many people actually had a neutral to positive opinion of me.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,339
Would love to look at the frequency distribution of masturbation over the course of my life. I know it has dropped off as I have gotten older but I want to see if/when a major dropoff happened.
(yes I am necroing this thread because I think it is interesting)
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,086
Idk, number of bad decisions would depress me but interesting. Time left in this existence would be nice to know. Maybe.
 
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fadedghost

fadedghost

desperately seeking "Method A"
Dec 10, 2025
218
what percentage of days alive after age 12 that i was suicidal, defined by thinking of the word "suicide" or "suicidal" or thinking of methods or wanting to die in vague or specific terms. my guess it's about 60% of days, it could even be higher.

also, i really wish i had great data on the days i wasn't suicide and if there was anything different on those days or before those days, like any patterns in the data i'm not away of...

(like for some reason, does eating something make me more suicidal? does watching tv? etc. it would be fascinating to actually have real data and find out why i am so sad.)
 
ceelobling

ceelobling

Student
Dec 29, 2025
123
How many times that things went wrong for me. I can show it to everyone as proof that the universe is targeting me. I always have to deal with some fuckshit that no one else has to deal with.
 
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LittleSunshine

Member
Jul 20, 2025
531
Probably none. I'd rather let some things remain an illusion, as it will most likely lead to more disappointment.
 
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gottacheckout

gottacheckout

COB
May 20, 2025
656
Ratio of time spent being an asshole vs being a nice person. I'm hoping the universe will let me know when I'm even up. Until then I'll keep trying to help others.
 
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Chocomel

Chocomel

Chocolate Milk
Jan 13, 2024
95
How many hours of playtime I spent on each different games, starting from age of 4
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
1,075
Opportunities Ive missed due to sheer fear of trying and low self esteem and scared ill become a bad person...idk if that sounds like a statistic

Or maybe die at a young age due to a crisis or something else
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,339
How many hours of playtime I spent on each different games, starting from age of 4
This would be interesting but I am not sure I want to know my Minecraft total hours 🫣
 

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