What questions are loved ones left with after CTB?

[symphony]

I understand it's common for those left behind after a suicide to experience a range of intense emotions and find themselves asking questions that can no longer be answered. So I'm wondering, what sorts of things is a person in such a situation likely to wish they could know?

 

[LifeHasNoOptIn]

Can't speak from personal experience, but I would imagine "why" is at the top of the list along with "is there something more I could have done". Dealing with the inevitable sadness/guilt that will be left behind is no doubt one of the challenges to deciding a plan to CTB that extends beyond just choosing a method.

 

[wanttogetonthebus]

Can't speak from personal experience, but I would imagine "why" is at the top of the list along with "is there something more I could have done". Dealing with the inevitable sadness/guilt that will be left behind is no doubt one of the challenges to deciding a plan to CTB that extends beyond just choosing a method.

I can't imagine a better answer to OP's questions than this reply right here.
To add a few additional questions that no one has said yet loved ones might also think,
"How could I have gotten to know Person X better? Could we have spent more time together?"
"Was leaving painful? What was it like and did they feel all alone?"
"How can I possibly move on without person X in my life? What would person X would have wanted with all the things they left behind?"
"What did person X really think of me? Was there anything they wanted from me? What did they dream of and what kind of things brought them pain? What secrets may person X have had or kept to themselves?"
"Did person X really want this or did they make a big mistake? Did they really consider the consequences? How could they do something like this? How could they leave us like this?"

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

What could I have done different

I knew one parent who lost their child who was almost 30 to CTB. I think they developed alcoholism because of it and it was bothering them years later, drinking every night and going on and on about it

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like if people write notes, then those left behind will not be left with as many unanswered questions and it may give them some closure. I feel like I would say things in a note like, this is what I wanted and try to explain why I have chosen to ctb.

 

[symphony]

I feel like if people write notes, then those left behind will not be left with as many unanswered questions and it may give them some closure. I feel like I would say things in a note like, this is what I wanted and try to explain why I have chosen to ctb.

Aha, that's actually partly what I"m asking, so I can anticipate what sorts of specific questions to (try to) answer.