What pushes you over the edge?

[mentalhealthfighter]

For me personally, I was okay with being numb and only being able to enjoy books. But now that being numb has turned into agony and I cant enjoy anything I feel like I'm in full survival mode. And I dont see the point in playing survival mode. So that's whats pushing me to the edge right now. What is or will push you to the edge to CTB?

 

[HappyForever?]

Every day loneliness stemming from unattractiveness pushes me closer to the edge. It is only a matter of time before I ctb.

 

[chocolatebar]

For me personally, I was okay with being numb and only being able to enjoy books. But now that being numb has turned into agony and I cant enjoy anything I feel like I'm in full survival mode. And I dont see the point in playing survival mode. So that's whats pushing me to the edge right now. What is or will push you to the edge to CTB?

Remembering my age, looking accidentally at my reflection and seeing younger people doing all the things I never did.

 

[Maaizr]

loneliness more and more as i get older, but its all gravy imma wrap it up and ctb soon

 

[callme]

How can anybody stand this damn world

 

[back_to_oblivion]

Hopelessness, having no prospects, nothing on the horizon.

 

[callme]

Hopelessness, having no prospects, nothing on the horizon.

Depends on where you stand. Beachy head's horizon isn't bad.

 

[again_noidea]

Physical pain. Maybe I will finally kill myself because of a toothache.

 

[callme]

Physical pain. Maybe I will finally kill myself because of a toothache.

Upper teeth are connected to vital neuro connections and can indeed kill you.

 

[spiralling]

All the stupid decisions I've made in my life has pushed me to the edge.

 

[FuneralCry]

It is difficult to ctb as we are programmed to survive. I believe I will need to reach a point of desperation to be able to exit this world. At the moment, I do have constant feelings of dread and everything is pretty much hopeless. However I believe I will get the push to actually ctb when my health gets worse. The human body is a prison and by that point I will be desperate to escape.

 

[idiot_dad]

Chronic physical pain, and embarrassment / shame for my decisions.

 

[Kennish]

For me personally, I was okay with being numb and only being able to enjoy books. But now that being numb has turned into agony and I cant enjoy anything I feel like I'm in full survival mode. And I dont see the point in playing survival mode. So that's whats pushing me to the edge right now. What is or will push you to the edge to CTB?

Ocd, anxiety, not being able to buy clothes and wear them and feel comfortable. Depression also. It's a matter of time before I do it. Need to save up for N. When that's done and I get it, it will be a matter of time. Choosing the right moment to do it. I can't live in this life anymore. I always wanted to, but it is just not my destiny. I don't feel at home in this body and this life.

 

[mistersinister]

Low GPA. Depression.

 

[honig]

I always knew I'd end up taking my own life. I feel like ever since I was a kid I was just waiting for courage to do it. I think that this made me push people away because I felt like I'm here only for short period of time and there's no point in making any attachments. I isolated myself from friends when things got too 'close', refused to ever date, did everything I can to self sabotage (drinking, binge eating, quitting jobs for no reason, not trying because I never cared about anything). I've been given chances that I neved deserved. It was like I'm done with life and then someone pushes me to do something good, and I was like "okay, I guess I can do this" and it's been ongoing, lol.
But I'm making the right choice ending it. I compare it to ripping band-aid; better to do it fast once and for good than doing it slowly and painfully

 

[Stuckaf2]

Everything at this point is a trigger

 

[LivvenDe]

Whenever I am reminded that we will eventually die anyway and that all the effort life demands is in vain.

Whenever I see people suffering or making others suffer - specially making animals suffer.

 

[callme]

You mean who, not what. You will push me.

 

[forgotten15]

Knowing things will never change and that if I don't make the courage to ctb soon i'll have to live with this emptiness many many years from now. This horrorfies me because I am so so tired of feeling like this and as of today i think i kinda reached a limit. I just can't do this anymore, i am tired and just want peace, just want out of this world i never wanted to be in. I want to be and feel nothing. I really hope i'll soon get the courage to ctb

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

You mean who, not what. You will push me.

I will push you? How?

 

[callme]

I will push you? How?

Over the edge. By hand.

 

[CaliCatCharlie]

Being a complete loser in life, loneliness and knowing I'll never be anything in life.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

• People who believe that a job, and a job alone, determines an individuals whole personality, principles and arbitrary "worth" or value. This is especially angering when it is a person in a so-called "white-collar" position who is being judgemental.

• People who often times refuse to even acknowledge another persons existence, and only begin to show concern for their well-being when they think that the person who they ignore could be seriously ill, or dying.

• Any behaviour which I think is virtue signalling.