Venting what more am i supposed to do?

[aeri]

i tried to open up and vent to friends. then opened up to my doctor. saw many psychiatrists and psychologists. i was on medication. i had therapy. i went regularly to the hospital. went to the emergency once. what more am i supposed to do? how am i supposed to live? how can i not ctb? why should i not ctb? why wont anyone support and love me during my last days? why do i have to be in pain and alone even in my last moments?

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are in this situation. I think that people can be often disappointing and unreliable. It is sad how many of us live lives that are just constant pain. I hope that you find relief from your suffering.

 

[8evergo]

i tried to open up and vent to friends. then opened up to my doctor. saw many psychiatrists and psychologists. i was on medication. i had therapy. i went regularly to the hospital. went to the emergency once. what more am i supposed to do? how am i supposed to live? how can i not ctb? why should i not ctb? why wont anyone support and love me during my last days? why do i have to be in pain and alone even in my last moments?

your are not alone it my last day to i will go soon

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