What is the trauma in your life?

[iwanttodie019]

Here by trauma,i mean human inflicted suffering

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Do doctors count? I came down with an unexplained illness in 2014 which I'm still dealing with to this day. I never got any real relief from it. No medical professional seemed to want to dig deeper to help me figure it out. Having eventually made some progress and working out that I have a pretty severe thyroid issue, they now won't even give me the relevant meds to potentially treat it, considering it "unnecessary". It's kind of apalling.

 

[sashaisalone]

Here by trauma,i mean human inflicted suffering

My theory on where BPD comes from etiologically is from disrupted attachment circuits. Where in infancy and early childhood, your parents/caregivers basically do it right, you develop a secure attachment style, but then something happens in middle childhood that makes you feel abandoned and let go and you're cut off of that security, and you perpetually crave to feel that again for the rest of your life until you find another source of healthy secure attachment and you go into remission. I don't care to get into specifics, but I basically described my experience, so I'm biased lol.

 

[LonelyPrince]

Adults. It stunted me emotionally, I still feel like a kid.

 

[AlTheObviousAlien]

My sister has a rare disorder that makes her believe I am a different person than her sister.
My miscarriage in 2022.
The COUNTLESS SAs.
My mom being a very good narcissist.
The literally voices in my head...Then the thoughts right after them.
Losing the love of my life that convinced me (someone who didn't want to be a mother) that I would be a great one... Just to break up with me while pregnant.
Well today for getting bullied about my miscarriage.

Not sure why I living this long, but hopefully I end that question and shit this weekend at least

 

[sashaisalone]

Adults. It stunted me emotionally, I still feel like a kid.

Same ): I feel like someone needs to help me heal my inner frightened lost abandoned child.

 

[violetforever]

Adults. It stunted me emotionally, I still feel like a kid.

same and ill feel this way my entire life.

 

[iwanttodie019]

same and ill feel this way my entire life.

what about bullying?have you ever been bullied?

 

[violetforever]

what about bullying?have you ever been bullied?

yeah but im kind of getting over it now. it was from when i was a child.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Bullying, mild neglect and bereavement. I suppose bereavement isn't such a willful act although- birthing us into a world where people we love will die is a willful action so- I'd include it.

 

[Sardenain]

Bullying and how it set me into the path I have gone through e.g. distrusts to others, lack of social skills, somewhat afraid of social interactions, afraid of bringing attention to myself and so on.

 

[Bowerbird]

Being autistic.

1. I got bullied for existing. For being too weird or too boring, talking too much or being too quiet, no matter how hard I tried to fit in or not step on any toes or fit in people would still find reasons to bully me

2. I Was professionally diagnosed as a kid, I've had the diagnosis/label attached to me for decades. Having to grow up with this label that people on the internet and even in person would, back in the day often use as an insult/pejorative to describe anything they thought was dumb, stupid, weird, creepy... that did horrible damage to my self esteem and mental health. Now autism is more "trendy" rather than being treated as a dumpster/rejects bin

 

[Spite]

Pretty much the same as Bowerbird, just being autistic.

Being bullied relentlessly in school, and my father disowning me are my biggest traumas.

 

[FuneralCry]

Having to exist at all, the fact that this existence was imposed truly is the most terrible, dreadful horrific tragedy that just causes all this torture and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to suffer in this existence truly is the most terrible mistake.

There's just so much evil in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'll always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence, to me existence really is the problem, to me existing will always be the most terrible, undeserved punishment that just causes all this harm and suffering.

I always suffer so much from being trapped in this torturous existence, it's just so horrific how even know existing causes all this terrible suffering humans do all they can to force and prolong the suffering and torture of existing no matter what, to me anti-suicide is just so evil, it's so terrifying how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible agony of old age.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I failed in life and I was so close to the big goal I always ever had. That's my trauma.

 

[PainThreshold]

I don't know, and that's the problem. I thought what happens to me is relatively normal compared to what everyone is going through and i was just weak for letting it get to me in the first place.

 

[darksouls]

my mother destroyed me,
I have been broken for as long as I can remember

 

[meiherasayuri]

buliyng,abandonment,grow up knowing that you are different from others,be rejected several times.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

early childhood abandonment, neglect, selfish uncaring parents, generalized humiliation, perverted love, being deemed worthless, failing to fully compensate for all that in the end at the final push in mid life...

 

[Redacted.Audio]

I was groomed at an extremely young age which led to serious hyper-sexuality & hyper-romance issues, Narcissistic & Bipolar father (General Daddy issues), SA, dependency issues leading to countless toxic relationships, and more

 

[iwanttodie019]

I was groomed at an extremely young age which led to serious hyper-sexuality & hyper-romance issues, Narcissistic & Bipolar father (General Daddy issues), SA, dependency issues leading to countless toxic relationships, and more

where are you from?if you do not mind me asking?

 

[Redacted.Audio]

Virginia, in the US

 

[iwanttodie019]

Virginia, in the US

Okay

Virginia, in the US

what time is it?

 

[dreaming]

abusive adoptive parents both physically&emotionally, particularly my adoptive mother, then later I was groomed by the people I trusted, it disgusts me to think about.

 

[iwanttodie019]

abusive adoptive parents both physically&emotionally, particularly my adoptive mother, then later I was groomed by the people I trusted, it disgusts me to think about.

where are you from?

 

[dreaming]

where are you from?

I don't think I want to answer that.

 

[iwanttodie019]

I don't think I want to answer that.

okay

 

[Redacted.Audio]

Okay

what time is it?

well now it's 6:03

 

[Green Destiny]

I remember my mom and step dad getting into some very nasty fights with lots of yelling, a few got so bad the cops showed up and I would have to stay at a friend's house or my dad's. I've always hated being in the presence of people who yell and scream as a result.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

Extreme neglect and bullying.

I was born totally different from my other siblings I was dark skinned, ugly creature at birth my mom was terrified, she said to me. She doesn't wanted me at all. But for religious reason they had to have me. When I was born my mom had horrible sickness and she would stay sick throughout her pregnancy. And it deeply effected my whole body and mind. Im now dumb, ugly and just abandoned deep inside. Nobody would be my friend when I was a child still I'm friendless and don't know anything about human interaction. I thought whats wrong with me? Why people hate me so much. I couldn't understand, I couldn't get them at all. I couldn't read properly. Couldn't count even when I was 12 year old. One of my tutor even said I need to see a doctor. My parents neglected me in childhood I was growing up with siblings but they didn't care too and they were much much older than me. I used to made imaginary friends, live completely alone. School was extremely difficult it was super overwhelming, people would say hurtful things, I tried to hide. Over the top of everything I'm from a 3rd world country where life is challenging. I just hope everything I die.