What is the one thing that could happen to prevent you from ctb?

[girlofduty]

Is there is one thing (or several things) that could happen in your life right now, that would prevent you from ctb?

It's also okay to say that, ultimately, nothing will stop you.

 

[yive]

nothing

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Ultimately, nothing will stop me.

 

[lonerclown666]

nothing

 

[blue_muse]

At this point, nothing. The damage has been done by my tormentors.

 

[RedHarlequin]

I have severe depression, it is unbearable. I have tried meds, ECT, ketamine, CBT.. I have an appointment to discuss deep brain stimulation (it is a brain operation) in two weeks. I guess if I could make it those two weeks and be approved and if the operation would work I wouldn't have to ctb. But I don't have a lot of hope because everything up to this point has failed me, I just hope I can make it till the appointment.

 

[Some1's_Wasted_Fetus]

I magically cure my depression and anxiety overnight. I magically enhance my physical appearance overnight. I get a gf. I get a nice job that I can actually tolerate and move out of my parent's home. If my autoimmune conditions were magically cured. Basically if I woke up one day and all my current circumstances and reasons for ctb'ing did a 180 completely. In reality it'll happen eventually and nothing'a going to stop that

 

[motel rooms]

Stars racing to burn out
Just stars racing to burn out
It is inevitable
It is inevitable

Nothing.

 

[Deadlyroses]

Winning enough money to remove the daily stress of having to work so fucking hard and continue my education would prolong my life significantly. I feel like it'd give me room to breathe and actually take care of myself. I'd move somewhere peaceful and live the rest of my days in solitude. But my demons would probably catch up with me down the line. I'm broken beyond repair in some sense- thanks to a life of suffering and pain. So there's still be a chance that I'd ctb at some point. It'd be way more delayed though.

 

[Last chance]

Sounds pathetic but for my ex to come back.

 

[BornofDust]

Nothing. Except for a few things thing maybe. People apologizing to me and acknowledging for once( instead of me doing the apologizing) . People willing to forgive me and being offered something that would help cure my mental illness once and for all. As in a machine or a pill that makes me " normal " like everyone else.

 

[Celerity]

Honesty, at this point, I don't even know. I would say that I wish I were a better person, but life itself frustrates me to an extent where I don't even think that would help.

 

[Saki]

Let's see. I would assume I wouldn't cbt if I have good reletionships/friendgroup, grades, no constant negative thoughts, stable job. An actual WILL to live. Which I don't have. If I could erase my past history.
All in all, If I wasn't me I wouldn't cbt
And my last wish is stopping me from dying yet. Is to travel one last time

 

[LONE WOLF.]

A healthy lottery win,or finally being allowed to go home after years in exile!

 

[LastLoveLetter]

A miracle. All of my ailments cured. But that's not possible. My disabilities are permanent.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think I will definitely CTB at some point in my life. I have always been depressed really but now with chronic health issues my life is pretty much pointless.

 

[WornOutLife]

I think that I would still be suicidal and ctb sooner or later no matter what.

HOWEVER...there's an exception:

If I somehow happened to have a child (it's not in my plans at all but accidents could happen), I wouldn't ctb. I just couldn't be so mean and I will always be there for him/her.

 

[brokenwaves]

if i won the lottery, that would stop me at least for a while lmaoo. it would be refreshing removing financial worries from my life completely and have the ability to do what i want, travel where i want, buy all the things i want to give me serotonin rushes. inevitably i would still ctb i'm sure because not even these things could heal my mind, but it would be a fun detour on the way out that's for sure. would also be nice to leave my loved ones with a lot of cash and fun memories after i leave

 

[Øystein]

Being someone else completely without my own consciousness

But that's kinda like committing suicide anyway so, oh

 

[lofticries]

Either way I'm gonna ctb when I get older and can no longer physically function properly. Losing my health, independence, and having to be monitored through out the day is not a life I wanna live. Not even for all the money and love in the world.

 

[death137]

I think love might pause my suicidal plan for the time being but I don't think anything will permanently erase my suicidal thoughts. I'm already exposed to the truth that life is a nightmare no matter what and that the sooner you leave the better.

 

[Butterfly65]

Ultimately nothing but winning the lottery would sure make me wait a bit.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Hmm yes, there is one thing what could stop me thinking that now, but because I'm suicidal it really can't change anything and I'm still going to do it sooner or later.

 

[StringPuppet]

I find a lamp with a genie that grants unlimited wishes

 

[LONE WOLF.]

I find a lamp with a genie that grants unlimited wishes

Loveless, if you do find a magic lamp, Could you Please wish that my Dog returns to 5yrs of age and lives for another 20yrs,Thank You! :-)

 

[StringPuppet]

Loveless, if you do find a magic lamp, Could you Please wish that my Dog returns to 5yrs of age and lives for another 20yrs,Thank You! :-)

I'd make that my first wish

 

[LONE WOLF.]

I'd make that my first wish

Thank You, my heartfelt gratitude Loveless, Max sends you a Woof and a Tail Wag., :-)

 

[GarageKarate07]

I would say time money and health but the biggest factor is being in a place where I feel loved and therefore safe. I feel i have been sad and isolated most of my life even when I was living with family and room mates. This is due to severe lack of love during childhood when most of peoples problems start. Way too much abuses (plural) at childhood ruins your entire life because you immediately develop trust and anxiety issues that stay with you for life. Even if you only were experiencing trauma in your mid life like around 30-35 like say prison or war or a murder or something that trauma destroys the rest of your days because you have been hurt so bad. Because we were hurt at the beginning of our lives we are sad for our entire existance here. It doesn't matter what type of trauma it was it all hurts even in the strongest of people. I'm 40 and my trauma started between 5-13. That type of pain doesn't heal. It can be "forgotten" but that takes an environment with kind loving people to make someone feel "safe" and even then the trauma is likely to come back from time to time. You don't need psycho meds or therapy you need closure if you can get it and love and comfort. Why put a schizophrenic in the same house with his parents? Fucking system is stupid.

 

[Bergamot]

Resolve the problems with my Gf and return happy and calm like before.

 

[Aeathelina]

Either winning a pretty large lottery or being committed to a mental ward for the remainder of my days