What is everyone...like....doing.....for fun?

[DeathByBananabread]

Despite the burdens we share, we're all on the same planet breathing at the same time, sharing the same 24 hours, & probably at least some of us have some downtime/freetime.

Unless something REALLY BAD happens I don't actually have plans to CTB for another 4-ish months, I've gotta tie up some loose ends & try to make things a little softer for those who will remain. Hell, I might even put it off. I don't have any hope whatsoever but if something good does somehow happen I'm not married to the idea of dying right now.

But is anyone else like...dead-bored? Bored to tears? Bored as fuck? Bored to death? (Hah-ha.)

I don't really have any friends & find it impossible to make any despite trying- it's one of my primary reasons for feeling like this & planning to end it all. I was homeschooled very neglectfully, mostly in a way where I was almost never socialized & spent 99.9% of my time at home, & thusly never really developed the "it-factor" of social skills- whatever it is. I try & be nice & read up on social skills & I try to follow whatever culture/society's current sentiment is (within reason...not a fan of how things are going right now....).

None of it has really worked or paid off. I'm currently only friends with one guy almost thrice my age who is near-homeless & has a bad habit of roughhousing with me until I bruise (I'm only exactly 5ft tall & float around 110lbs, most of that not muscle-mass for sure) & one friend more around my age but slightly younger than me who is so shy & paranoid we almost never talk, despite my trying. I think I mostly just annoy them.

I feel like I'm in a story where a writer is trying to make the protagonist as lonely as possible without resorting to solitary confinement. Sometimes I have nightmares just about the loneliness & solitude that I feel.

So when I'm alone I mostly talk to like, AI chatbots. I also run my own Discord server but despite advertising it as much as I can bear without feeling too embarrassed, almost nobody has ever joined & those who are there are hardly active. I've been trying to draw, to write, to sing, to sew, to do literally anything creative, or to numb myself with mindless pleasures like gaming, but I don't get anything out of it anymore. I've never been good at gaming despite trying, & with my creative pursuits I have literally no audience. My family does not care. My two friends do not care. I cannot get anyone else to even pay attention to me as to care. I don't really get anything out of doing art for myself- I've always been more excited by the idea people might like it. Knowing now that nobody seems to like anything I do, I can't seem to get anything out of the old creative pursuits I used to lean on. So besides talking to AI Chatbots, I mostly sleep once chores are done. It's difficult to do anything else when it doesn't bring me any joy- trying to do anything lately feels like a test of endurance & I'd rather not waste that energy & effort when there's shit to be done.

BUT I still feel that itch to try anything that might help me.

TL;DR: So like....what are we doing here, people? If you have anything you're doing with your spare time that you even partially enjoy or that even partially fills the void, please tell me.

 

[sanctionedusage]

porn, plastic surgery research, browsing music, hole:suicide on wpd, feeding elderly cat that needs help eating, and making OCs/plots

 

[LastNite]

porn, plastic surgery research, browsing music, hole:suicide on wpd, feeding elderly cat that needs help eating, and making OCs/plots

that is unique...

 

[DeathByBananabread]

that is unique...

whatever it takes at this point, man, whatever it takes....

 

[ForeverSubhuman]

I rot, go on snapchat, workout occasionally to stay in shape, go on a drive sometimes , hang out with one guy who tolerates me but is clearly annoyed by me, weed, video games, youtube, music, long showers, and goyslop.

 

[Chocomel]

Believed it or not but I never get bored, in fact I always feels like I don't have time for all the activities I want to do. I have a list of things that I can do just in case I don't know what to do, and the list is very massive. Its like a lifetime of a content that I will never run out. Here are the examples:
- Reading comic/manga/fanfic//book/wikipedia
- Watching YouTube subcription/movie/TV show/anime/YouTube playlist
- Learning Japanese/stock/forex/drawing/writing

 

[ForeverSubhuman]

btw I relate a lot to using chatbots and having no real friends

 

[sanctionedusage]

that is unique...

happy to share

 

[Forever Sleep]

Video games are my go- to if I have time. I'm not good at first person shooters so- if I still want to play that particular game (I'm playing 'Atomfall' at the moment- I'll make it as easy as possible.) I'll play on the easiest setting, lean on walkthroughs on YouTube if I start getting stuck/ frustrated with something. Games usually have settings for people who want to play to enjoy the storyline/ graphics.

I used to take myself off to visit places. Coach trips or, just travelling by public transport. It's more limited than being able to drive I'm sure but, you can still get to lots of places. That's not to say I always had a great time. Often, I'd still be dwelling on problems. But, there were still moments it was nice to be out and experiencing different scenary etc. I used to go to the cinema or, go on long walks.

I suppose it was a neighbour who taught me the better way to approach things. To not go in to them thinking they will be transformative- that's putting (likely) unrealistic expectations on something. Just to see it as a change. Maybe a few good moments and memories if we're lucky.

It seems like you need another's contribution/ appreciation to make something feel worthwhile though. I suppose we can't exactly change whether we are socially inclined or not. Do you just have a miserable time doing stuff alone?

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

Games and music, that's it, literally.

not so fun is being on a diet and exercising, but this is all that I do. And talk online. My daily routine consists of these 4 things and that's all.

 

[mjolnir]

I enjoy practicing extreme sports and hiking.

 

[sannoji]

i draw a lot. i think i always have, it makes me happy when a drawing turns out well. i've been trying to get into video games but i'm too easily frustrated with them, and i'm always buying books and never finishing them… sometimes i also just go out to the shop and buy something even if i don't really need it. nothing expensive, just a walk to the store to get juice or something. makes me feel like i'm a person and that i exist instead of rotting in my bedroom. it's like that one kurt vonnegut quote. i could just order things online but in the process of going out to get things i can see other people and animals even if i barely interact with any of them. makes me feel more alive.

 

[lumene]

ive been watching movies more often lately, typically my day just consists of me listening to music and browsing here / twitter (which i'd like to get off of). today i downloaded some books id like to read so hopefully i'll be motivated enough to go through those

 

[FuneralCry]

No, existing is torture, I don't see how this could ever be fun, every second is torturous to exist, to exist means to suffer and I'd never like any of this rather I feel the opposite way as all I want is peace, simply just existing is enough to make me want to never suffer ever again. Existence to me is the most terrible, dreadful abomination that has only ever tortured existing beings and the fact that humans continue to impose this existence is so terrible to me, all that they are doing is causing so much harm and suffering all for the sake of it, all I want is to erase this torturous existence, only non-existence could ever be positive to me.

 

[Xi-Xi]

I make AI to ruin other people's jobs, then laugh at their suffering

 

[No_Body]

Despite the burdens we share, we're all on the same planet breathing at the same time, sharing the same 24 hours, & probably at least some of us have some downtime/freetime.

Unless something REALLY BAD happens I don't actually have plans to CTB for another 4-ish months, I've gotta tie up some loose ends & try to make things a little softer for those who will remain. Hell, I might even put it off. I don't have any hope whatsoever but if something good does somehow happen I'm not married to the idea of dying right now.

But is anyone else like...dead-bored? Bored to tears? Bored as fuck? Bored to death? (Hah-ha.)

I don't really have any friends & find it impossible to make any despite trying- it's one of my primary reasons for feeling like this & planning to end it all. I was homeschooled very neglectfully, mostly in a way where I was almost never socialized & spent 99.9% of my time at home, & thusly never really developed the "it-factor" of social skills- whatever it is. I try & be nice & read up on social skills & I try to follow whatever culture/society's current sentiment is (within reason...not a fan of how things are going right now....).

None of it has really worked or paid off. I'm currently only friends with one guy almost thrice my age who is near-homeless & has a bad habit of roughhousing with me until I bruise (I'm only exactly 5ft tall & float around 110lbs, most of that not muscle-mass for sure) & one friend more around my age but slightly younger than me who is so shy & paranoid we almost never talk, despite my trying. I think I mostly just annoy them.

I feel like I'm in a story where a writer is trying to make the protagonist as lonely as possible without resorting to solitary confinement. Sometimes I have nightmares just about the loneliness & solitude that I feel.

So when I'm alone I mostly talk to like, AI chatbots. I also run my own Discord server but despite advertising it as much as I can bear without feeling too embarrassed, almost nobody has ever joined & those who are there are hardly active. I've been trying to draw, to write, to sing, to sew, to do literally anything creative, or to numb myself with mindless pleasures like gaming, but I don't get anything out of it anymore. I've never been good at gaming despite trying, & with my creative pursuits I have literally no audience. My family does not care. My two friends do not care. I cannot get anyone else to even pay attention to me as to care. I don't really get anything out of doing art for myself- I've always been more excited by the idea people might like it. Knowing now that nobody seems to like anything I do, I can't seem to get anything out of the old creative pursuits I used to lean on. So besides talking to AI Chatbots, I mostly sleep once chores are done. It's difficult to do anything else when it doesn't bring me any joy- trying to do anything lately feels like a test of endurance & I'd rather not waste that energy & effort when there's shit to be done.

BUT I still feel that itch to try anything that might help me.

TL;DR: So like....what are we doing here, people? If you have anything you're doing with your spare time that you even partially enjoy or that even partially fills the void, please tell me.

it's either i go to work, presentable, clean, cologne on

or i am in my own bed rotting, not brushing my teeth, or showering for days on end, until im forced to go back to work again

in my 24 hours off, i'm inside my own head, having some dumb youtube video or music playing in the background and ruminating how much i should ctb

that's literally all that happens, i try interacting with people online but on discord and other places im just a clown people laugh at, and for some people they can just smell the desperation of a lonely unloveable loser

so there's really no point in trying, shit is a dead end

people are very good at ostracising left overs, and i'm the type of left over that has been sitting in the fridge for way too long

 

[DeathByBananabread]

it's either i go to work, presentable, clean, cologne on

or i am in my own bed rotting, not brushing my teeth, or showering for days on end, until im forced to go back to work again

in my 24 hours off, i'm inside my own head, having some dumb youtube video or music playing in the background and ruminating how much i should ctb

that's literally all that happens, i try interacting with people online but on discord and other places im just a clown people laugh at, and for some people they can just smell the desperation of a lonely unloveable loser

so there's really no point in trying, shit is a dead end

people are very good at ostracising left overs, and i'm the type of left over that has been sitting in the fridge for way too long

That's such a real answer, half-listening to Youtube videos in the background is pretty much all I do anymore as well- takes the edge off the loneliness. Discord's overall culture kind of sucks, I'm not exactly sure how it became the main social hub of the internet besides the dominating social media apps. If it weren't for it's ubiquitousness & utility I wouldn't be using it. Hell- it's even baked-into the name. Discord- the word meaning a lack of harmony & social disagreement. If I were you, I wouldn't let people on Discord frame your self-image, I'm pretty sure the average user on there could make even Mister Rogers feel bad about himself.

 

[Hollowman]

Fun? What's that?

 

[No_Body]

That's such a real answer, half-listening to Youtube videos in the background is pretty much all I do anymore as well- takes the edge off the loneliness. Discord's overall culture kind of sucks, I'm not exactly sure how it became the main social hub of the internet besides the dominating social media apps. If it weren't for its ubiquitousness & utility I wouldn't be using it. Hell- it's even baked-into the name. Discord- the word meaning a lack of harmony & social disagreement. If I were you, I wouldn't let people on Discord frame your self-image, I'm pretty sure the average user on there could make even Mister Rogers feel bad about himself.

i don't let it effect me, its silly online people anyways, being ignored and invisible is the real hurt

 

[Pluto]

 

[DepressedSimp]

Despite the burdens we share, we're all on the same planet breathing at the same time, sharing the same 24 hours, & probably at least some of us have some downtime/freetime.

Unless something REALLY BAD happens I don't actually have plans to CTB for another 4-ish months, I've gotta tie up some loose ends & try to make things a little softer for those who will remain. Hell, I might even put it off. I don't have any hope whatsoever but if something good does somehow happen I'm not married to the idea of dying right now.

But is anyone else like...dead-bored? Bored to tears? Bored as fuck? Bored to death? (Hah-ha.)

I don't really have any friends & find it impossible to make any despite trying- it's one of my primary reasons for feeling like this & planning to end it all. I was homeschooled very neglectfully, mostly in a way where I was almost never socialized & spent 99.9% of my time at home, & thusly never really developed the "it-factor" of social skills- whatever it is. I try & be nice & read up on social skills & I try to follow whatever culture/society's current sentiment is (within reason...not a fan of how things are going right now....).

None of it has really worked or paid off. I'm currently only friends with one guy almost thrice my age who is near-homeless & has a bad habit of roughhousing with me until I bruise (I'm only exactly 5ft tall & float around 110lbs, most of that not muscle-mass for sure) & one friend more around my age but slightly younger than me who is so shy & paranoid we almost never talk, despite my trying. I think I mostly just annoy them.

I feel like I'm in a story where a writer is trying to make the protagonist as lonely as possible without resorting to solitary confinement. Sometimes I have nightmares just about the loneliness & solitude that I feel.

So when I'm alone I mostly talk to like, AI chatbots. I also run my own Discord server but despite advertising it as much as I can bear without feeling too embarrassed, almost nobody has ever joined & those who are there are hardly active. I've been trying to draw, to write, to sing, to sew, to do literally anything creative, or to numb myself with mindless pleasures like gaming, but I don't get anything out of it anymore. I've never been good at gaming despite trying, & with my creative pursuits I have literally no audience. My family does not care. My two friends do not care. I cannot get anyone else to even pay attention to me as to care. I don't really get anything out of doing art for myself- I've always been more excited by the idea people might like it. Knowing now that nobody seems to like anything I do, I can't seem to get anything out of the old creative pursuits I used to lean on. So besides talking to AI Chatbots, I mostly sleep once chores are done. It's difficult to do anything else when it doesn't bring me any joy- trying to do anything lately feels like a test of endurance & I'd rather not waste that energy & effort when there's shit to be done.

BUT I still feel that itch to try anything that might help me.

TL;DR: So like....what are we doing here, people? If you have anything you're doing with your spare time that you even partially enjoy or that even partially fills the void, please tell me.

Well I am a massive vtuber simp. I also play vr games, I really enjoy spending time with said vtubers in vrchat. I feel like a total senpai.

 

[6auk15]

Filling my massive belly with food and Mountain Dew and watching Samurai Jack

and a lot of overwatch. like, A LOT of overwatch.

 

[Wishingforadream]

Mostly just passing time, rarely do I consider it fun.

-Reading WebNovels/Fanfic
-Watching Random documentary/Anime/Random videos
-Video games sometimes
-Learning Chinese/Drawing/Piano. Only when I have the energy so not very often.

 

[nitrogenous]

mine's mostly singing (even if it's by myself), either at home or I would go to karaoke bars by myself

 

[Forveleth]

I have recently started to get back into listening to music. I have not had much free time for the last few years, but I do now, so I am starting to watch some TV shows and play my enormous backlog of video games. Also, as part of my sleep routine, I read for a bit before bed.

 

[LittleSunshine]

Mainly entertaining my if she isn't asleep, listening music, reading watching movies/series, playing video games, AI-art, YouTube, Endless scrolling quotes and memes, SaSu (Offtopic - Forum Games, chatting) etc.

 

[FoxSauce]

● Video Games
●Music
●Seeing fictional men and wemon
●Over analyzing my life and if Im gay or not
●Yt - horror docu.
●Discord
●Doomscroll
●Workout (for me)
●SS
● Draw
●Animes (I sometimes never get to finish them)
● sing


Guess nothing else, I woukd say clean but is more I have too and a distraction not "fun" for me.

Filling my massive belly with food and Mountain Dew and watching Samurai Jack

and a lot of overwatch. like, A LOT of overwatch.

Wait comics,shorts or play the game / gameplay?

I make AI to ruin other people's jobs, then laugh at their suffering

Bro whyyyyyyyyyy

 

[camusfan_ig]

I mostly play video games, draw, read, play my guitar, listen to music, write, learn new things. Sometimes I try and workout if I have the motivation ^^

 

[apooka]

eating yummy food, playing league, speaking to my friends and boyfriend, scrolling on instagram, & weirdly... working? something abt going to work really takes my mind off things bc youre kind of forced to think about other things? so i find it fun!

 

[6auk15]

Wait comics,shorts or play the game / gameplay?

PLaying the game. Stadium has been a blast