What if there's no option but to live

[rs929]

CTB is hard as hell. What if the only possibility is living? And how do you get to a point where you acknowledge that you won't be able to CTB?.

I dream I jump off the roof of my 20 story building but it's not likely that I'll be able to have the balls to do it.

To do N you have to gamble 800.bucks, not really a choice for many of us.

I have no access to guns, and if I had I wouldn't trust I could use it properly.

Partial hanging is just too good to be true. Most likely your hurt yourself and end up with brain damage.

Full hanging, you have to accept that unless you do it right, you'll be slowly suffocating to death, with no abort option.

What I'm just saying is that maybe CTB is just.not possible for many of us and we would be better not.obsessing over it, and try to live life with the least suffering possible.

Does.this make any sense?

 

[Pookie]

There's a million ways to die naturally or by accident and some of it in brutal ways. I'd rather take control of my own death. Not having an option is terrifying to me. Although horrific, I'd rather suffocate for 4 minutes before dying than live a lifetime of this shit.

 

[rabbithole]

That's a terrifying prospect

 

[ihavetoleave]

Yeah CTB is a really tough thing to do. Perhaps some of us are different mentally and have less issues committing to it and completing the task, I don't know. I saw today a diplomat died of suicide and was found face down with a belt around her neck, something I have tried many times and failed at. I don't think I will ever understand why some succeed and others fail at this. I do know that we all have an expiration date, so if it doesn't happen when I try to it will happen at some point at least. Not suffering over the decision to CTB is not necessarily as simple as a choice though, it is a complex problem that differs depending on the reasons why, could be mental, physical, or both. I wish it was as simple as making a decision to not obsess over it, there are reasons why I am here and I assume why all of us are here on this site.