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EtherealCicada

EtherealCicada

Member
Sep 28, 2025
8
What do you want to happen to you body after you pass/What do you think is most likely to happen to it?

For the first question, you can be as unrealistic or greedy as you want.

The thought of decomposing fully brings be great comfort. I want my body to break down, feeding all of my currently useless mass back into the earth. I'd love to be able to watch it happen, to see the bacteria, bugs, animals, fungi come to feast on the fallen flesh of my corpse and bring me back into the ground to supplement the forest floor too.

...Unfortunately once my body is found, humans will not leave it in place and will process it before this becomes a full possibility. I've already grieved my own death, but my stupid ass has recently been grieving the unfortunate timing my CTB month has fallen on. I'm going to be attempting a few months earlier than I had anticipated, which leaves my suicide in the middle of winter. Goddamn December. The reason I am sad about this is because originally, even though I know I won't fully decompose, my brain is like "we will still get a little decay as a treat"- We'll get a little bit of the natural process in before the body is found. But seeing as we tend to get in the negatives of degrees during winter, especially at nighttime which is when I plan on acting, I'm thinking my body will be found... Unfortunately pristine. I'm sad.

Anyway, after... There's no money for burials or embalming or funerals or anything like that. I'll definitely be cremated, as that's the cheapest option. I'll likely end up on my family's shelf, and if I'm lucky, make it into some nice jewelry.

Sorry if this is a strange post or my thoughts seem disjointed (?) shoutout to this one ancient tumblr post.
 

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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,967
I just want it to be erased and forgotten about like I never existed at all which is what will happen, we are all going to die anyway, existing is just waiting to die and to permanently cease existing and never suffer in this torturous, futile existence ever again is just all I hope for, I wish for no more suffering.
 
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$yck

$yck

swaggot
Oct 23, 2025
78
I want to be cremated, have my old friends smoke my ashes in a blunt and have the rest thrown in Niagara Falls or something.
 
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Ladyybugged

Ladyybugged

𝑺𝒂𝒉𝒂𝒓 <3
Oct 21, 2025
63
Cannibalism, but i'll prob be buried ig.
 
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divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
Cremated and ashes thrown into the ocean
 
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Gustav Hartmann

Gustav Hartmann

Enlightened
Aug 28, 2021
1,348
Answer to both questions: Ravens and crows (there is an overpopulation in my area) will eat my hanging body.
 
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perishsong

perishsong

it/she
Sep 10, 2025
87
I second the fantasy of decomposition. I wish I could become a decaying sack of organic matter for non-human organisms to use. Ideally, no human intervention would happen until I'm bones reclaimed by nature. I'd love to be food for scavengers, dead matter for decomposers, nutrients for plants and fungi, and finally scaffolding for all the beings. This is where I belong.

... realistically, some passerby will probably find my rotting carcass, I'll be buried with my grandma and "celebrated", then once everyone moves on, I'll get a cheap candle on my grave once or twice a year.
 
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Silver The Hedgehog

Silver The Hedgehog

cornball ahh forum (i got better)
Sep 14, 2025
59
i wish i could just despawn, no body. i dont want to be found, or seen. I want to be left the fuck alone
 
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gomikasu

gomikasu

Member
Jun 2, 2023
58
My plan is to donate my body to science. In an ideal world I'd be dying via an overdose and my brain could potentially yield useful information on depression. Unfortunately we don't live in an ideal world and I'm blowing my brains out, but at least my body can contribute more to society than I ever could.
 
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Gunthertempname

Gunthertempname

New Member
Oct 22, 2025
4
I most likely would want my organs donated so that whenever im gone my body could be used for something somewhat important
 
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Loaf

Member
Oct 15, 2025
5
For me, it'll most definitely be just a standard funeral. For a few days, the people i know would be thinking about me for once. That would be nice. I wish i could watch them.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,645
Odd to think of. Eventually all of us will be there. Just later than we'd like. Hard to even imagine. Ideally I'd just not exist. This body is a curse.
 
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woodlandcreature

woodlandcreature

tired | they/it | feel free to reach out
Apr 3, 2024
271
Cannibalism, but i'll prob be buried ig.
if i had someone i had a mutual love and understanding with, i'd want this too. even if i did it'd never happen realistically, so as long as i'm not embalmed im chill with whatever. it'd also just be nice to be left somewhere out in nature to decompose though.
 
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ABadPerson

ABadPerson

something’s off | internet black goop
Oct 24, 2025
106
I'm not sure why but all I can imagine for what I want is just my body laying somewhere quiet and isolated like a forgotten alleyway, just slowly decomposing peacefully to be never found.

But I think when I CTB it'll likely be the cheapest option funeral and a quick burial.
 
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snow_in_summer

snow_in_summer

眠い
Jul 26, 2025
32
whenever I think about this i'd rather just disappear without a trace. disappearing into the forest or something sounds kinda nice. I hate thinking about some dramatic aftermath - not that i'd care by then, but....
 
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DeadInsideUnicorn

DeadInsideUnicorn

I'm my own worst enemy
Oct 24, 2025
20
I don't wanna be found. Like never. In my fantasy, I'll kill myself somewhere in the woods and decompose there. I don't want anyone to see my dead body in any condition, maaaybe my bones. But I know I will be found early so I'll just leave a note for my family that I don't want a funeral because I'm sure almost no one will come. Just burry me or cremate me in silence and forgot I ever existed. That's how I feel anyway - like nobody cares.
 
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traingirl

traingirl

I was good. I was really good.
Oct 7, 2025
329
What do you want to happen to you body after you pass/What do you think is most likely to happen to it?

For the first question, you can be as unrealistic or greedy as you want.

The thought of decomposing fully brings be great comfort. I want my body to break down, feeding all of my currently useless mass back into the earth. I'd love to be able to watch it happen, to see the bacteria, bugs, animals, fungi come to feast on the fallen flesh of my corpse and bring me back into the ground to supplement the forest floor too.

...Unfortunately once my body is found, humans will not leave it in place and will process it before this becomes a full possibility. I've already grieved my own death, but my stupid ass has recently been grieving the unfortunate timing my CTB month has fallen on. I'm going to be attempting a few months earlier than I had anticipated, which leaves my suicide in the middle of winter. Goddamn December. The reason I am sad about this is because originally, even though I know I won't fully decompose, my brain is like "we will still get a little decay as a treat"- We'll get a little bit of the natural process in before the body is found. But seeing as we tend to get in the negatives of degrees during winter, especially at nighttime which is when I plan on acting, I'm thinking my body will be found... Unfortunately pristine. I'm sad.

Anyway, after... There's no money for burials or embalming or funerals or anything like that. I'll definitely be cremated, as that's the cheapest option. I'll likely end up on my family's shelf, and if I'm lucky, make it into some nice jewelry.

Sorry if this is a strange post or my thoughts seem disjointed (?) shoutout to this one ancient tumblr post.
I'm getting cremated because I'm jumping.
 
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SilentEclipse

Member
Oct 23, 2025
36
I'd like to be buried in a grand chapel, like in the cemetery of artists but in a section dedicated solely to me: to an artist who never created any art.
A majestic, baroque place, overflowing with decoration and almost ridiculous opulence. Around it, a garden cared for daily by gardeners who change the colors, the tones, and the ornaments with every season, for every occasion, no matter how trivial.
I'd like people to come visit me on pilgrimage perhaps even paid by the state, as extras in the theater of my posthumous cult.
I want to be remembered as a great writer, even though my books contain nothing; as a brilliant painter, even though my canvases are all white; as a legendary musician, with beautiful vinyl records that hold no sound at all.
I want to take part, fully and finally, in the absurdity of existence leaving behind a legacy that, like all others, has no real substance, except that mine, at least, is honest about it.
 
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gomer1978

Member
Oct 23, 2025
39
What do you want to happen to you body after you pass/What do you think is most likely to happen to it?

For the first question, you can be as unrealistic or greedy as you want.

The thought of decomposing fully brings be great comfort. I want my body to break down, feeding all of my currently useless mass back into the earth. I'd love to be able to watch it happen, to see the bacteria, bugs, animals, fungi come to feast on the fallen flesh of my corpse and bring me back into the ground to supplement the forest floor too.

...Unfortunately once my body is found, humans will not leave it in place and will process it before this becomes a full possibility. I've already grieved my own death, but my stupid ass has recently been grieving the unfortunate timing my CTB month has fallen on. I'm going to be attempting a few months earlier than I had anticipated, which leaves my suicide in the middle of winter. Goddamn December. The reason I am sad about this is because originally, even though I know I won't fully decompose, my brain is like "we will still get a little decay as a treat"- We'll get a little bit of the natural process in before the body is found. But seeing as we tend to get in the negatives of degrees during winter, especially at nighttime which is when I plan on acting, I'm thinking my body will be found... Unfortunately pristine. I'm sad.

Anyway, after... There's no money for burials or embalming or funerals or anything like that. I'll definitely be cremated, as that's the cheapest option. I'll likely end up on my family's shelf, and if I'm lucky, make it into some nice jewelry.

Sorry if this is a strange post or my thoughts seem disjointed (?) shoutout to this one ancient tumblr post.
I used to think it would good to leave my body to science. Allow students to learn etc.

But as an archaeologist, i now want burial with crazy random items, to confuse future archaeology.
 
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AuraByte

AuraByte

If I'm lost, please don't find me.
Jun 24, 2025
108
I'd like my organs to be donated to help others. Then cremation.
 
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Wolf-Alice

Wolf-Alice

Member
Nov 11, 2023
38
I wish I would, upon my death, instantly disappear in a puff of smoke like a magician.

In reality, I'd likely be found at home by my mother. She'd lose her shit. People would see me as a corpse - that disgusts me so terribly. I don't like having my body remain in the world, vulnerable and defenceless.

There was a time where I didn't care - nothing matters once I'm dead and I'm not there to experience it - but I don't feel that way anymore. I'm uncomfortable with my remains.

Realistically, I'd like to have one of those burials where I'm buried in some easily decomposable pod under a tree - an eco burial? I don't remember. Who knows if that's actually available where I live. Maybe my family would settle for cremation.
 
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shampoo sniffer

shampoo sniffer

Terminal
Aug 10, 2025
285
I would prefer my body is never found. I don't want to be left to decompose though, that freaks me out. I would like to just burst into flames or phase out of reality altogether.

OTOH It would be nice to share a headstone with my parents. I have an aunt who did this when my uncle passed. She paid for a shared headstone when she was still alive. Their urns were laid to rest together.
 
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hocus pocus

hocus pocus

Member
Oct 14, 2025
8
I'd want to be buried with my most important items, those being 3 little glass bottles containing fur from my pet rats, and my comfort plushie. I'd also want my headstone to have a rat in it.
 
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scarystrawberry

scarystrawberry

Member
Oct 20, 2025
15
I wish I could just not exist anymore. And be completely erased from, everyone's mind. Like a file deleted permanently from a computer. But likely I will be buried. Not in a casket tho because that's not how my family does stuff which is cool because the idea of just decomposing into the earth as fertilizer is nice
 
Macedonian1987

Macedonian1987

Just a sad guy from Macedonia.
Oct 22, 2025
931
I don't care what happens to my body. Not in the slightest. They can do whatever they want with it. My body decided to go against me while i was alive with it's chronic pain. My body is the reason why im cutting my life so short. If it wasn't for the pain i would've lived much longer, because i learned how to live all alone and without love because of my asperger's. It is a sad existence yes, but its bearable.
 
wheelsonthebus

wheelsonthebus

vroom vroom
Apr 1, 2022
74
I want the person that supposed to help prevent this situation but instead made it worse to see. But ultimately I don't actually want to be found. I guess I don't really care since I'll be gone, but I feel like it's a waste to not achieve something in death if I failed to achieve anything meaningful in life. Even if it's as small as traumatizing one asshole.
 
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Malfunction

Malfunction

Experienced
Jul 27, 2024
214
The living can do whatever they want. Likely cremation and burial with hopefully no funeral or even an obituary.

I'll be dead, it won't really matter to me at that point anyway.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

whhaazzzzzuuupppp
May 21, 2025
447
donate my body to science, so those nerds can see what a real ass🍑 looks like
 
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