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cursedlife

Student
Jun 28, 2024
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my friend mentioned how horrible he felt when he was diagnosed with schizophrenia and I opened up to him about having suicidal thoughts and he told me suicide is weak , I didn't talk to him ever since, it happened 1 month ago , I don't know why suicide is so stigmatized even for people with horrible pain and mental illnesses , it's like they're ignoring all the pain we are going through, what do you think about normies thinking we are weak for thinking about suicide?
 
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MonkeyButter

Student
Sep 3, 2026
133
It's Christians. They are so filled with vile hatred that they feel the need to insert their false belief system into everybody else's lives. Its really disgusting. Nobody else really has an issue with it. Maybe Muslims but they aren't nearly as pushy about their beliefs.
 
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DeathJester

DeathJester

Until The Light Takes Us
Jul 6, 2026
36
I tend to get a tad bit angry and tell those people to fuck off because the generalizing and stupid idea that most suicides happen spontanously out of sheer cowardness is very hurtful and dismissive.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,370
Don't even talk about your depression and suicidal thoughts in real life.. majority of them will not understand and rather distance themselves from you.
There's this one couple I helped a lot in my college days to unite and get married to each other.. They know I'm suicidal and they have never bothered to check if I'm doing good or not. I was only a resource for them.
Most ppl can never understand that ctb is the most difficult thing to do.
If ctb was possible, most ppl would be gone by now.
Firstly, you are in pain. Then you've to study so much about all these methods, and plan so meticulously what will work for you what will not, and then to arrange the setup.
To beat through ones own Survival Instinct.
Is it easy to shoot oneself using a gun?
Is it easy to jump from several feets tall buildings/bridges
Is it easy to ingest cyanide
One has to be really strong willed to do all of that
 
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pagalparinda

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Sep 5, 2026
46
The thing is suicide is not at all a cowards play. It definitely needs courage. Whole lot of it. It has never been easy. For no one unless one is like Hitler and has 0.32 PPK to blow his temple. It needs whole lot of resources, planning, speed, courage, and many other things combined in one step. One single Step which you know is one single chance. It can not be a child's play. I am 36 now, and have tried to do this since I was 7. It was June 1998. Every time life bluffs me completely. Every single time.

Those who counter and are against suicide are ones who are saving their ass. On a scale of 0 to 10, If some ones luck and bad luck is measuring 7, and 8 does not exist, then 7 will be the most unlucky ones. But if 7 dies, 6 becomes the unluckiest person in the world. So until 7 exists, 6 is to same extent saved from the might of bad luck.

Add to it everyone wants to record their + points on their name in HIS book. So you see saving someone from suicide is that good karma which every one wants. Otherwise in this materialistic and selfish world, who is gonna think about someone ending up his life? Who bothers? No one? No single person in this world is concerned about you.
 
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ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,370
The thing is suicide is not at all a cowards play. It definitely needs courage. Whole lot of it. It has never been easy. For no one unless one is like Hitler and has 0.32 PPK to blow his temple. It needs whole lot of resources, planning, speed, courage, and many other things combined in one step. One single Step which you know is one single chance. It can not be a child's play. I am 36 now, and have tried to do this since I was 7. It was June 1998. Every time life bluffs me completely. Every single time.

Those who counter and are against suicide are ones who are saving their ass. On a scale of 0 to 10, If some ones luck and bad luck is measuring 7, and 8 does not exist, then 7 will be the most unlucky ones. But if 7 dies, 6 becomes the unluckiest person in the world. So until 7 exists, 6 is to same extent saved from the might of bad luck.

Add to it everyone wants to record their + points on their name in HIS book. So you see saving someone from suicide is that good karma which every one wants.
We are the exact same age bro
I started suicide ideation since i was 13. I tried to strangle myself with a banyan/vest
 
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pagalparinda

Member
Sep 5, 2026
46
We are the exact same age bro
Yup. U r from which city?
We are the exact same age bro
I started suicide ideation since i was 13. I tried to strangle myself with a banyan/vest
Strangulation takes time. Don't do it. If survived somehow, you might have to Rot in this selfish world alone like Aruna Shehbag. Just wondering what must have happened to her in hospital during her coma. Male's desires for helpless women is never ending.
 
ctb_warrior

ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
1,370
Yup. U r from which city?

Strangulation takes time. Don't do it. If survived somehow, you might have to Rot in this selfish world alone like Aruna Shehbag. Just wondering what must have happened to her in hospital during her coma. Male's desires for helpless women is never ending.
As this is a public post, lets talk about each other's location in personal conversation.

Yeah strangulation is useless totally.

I read about your plan in one of your posts, where you wrote you'll be doing it in the vast area of your office land.
 
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cursedlife

Student
Jun 28, 2024
187
It's Christians. They are so filled with vile hatred that they feel the need to insert their false belief system into everybody else's lives. Its really disgusting. Nobody else really has an issue with it. Maybe Muslims but they aren't nearly as pushy about their beliefs.
I live in a Muslim country and I'm secretly an agnostic and I confirm Muslim do this too , they make me feel worse and I can't express my opinion without getting isolated or even worse imprisoned, one of the reasons am thinking of ending my life
 
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MonkeyButter

Student
Sep 3, 2026
133
I live in a Muslim country and I'm secretly an agnostic and I confirm Muslim do this too , they make me feel worse and I can't express my opinion without getting isolated or even worse imprisoned, one of the reasons am thinking of ending my life
Damn shame. The Muslims I know all seem so nice but yeah I guess that's just to my face.
 
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cursedlife

Student
Jun 28, 2024
187
I tend to get a tad bit angry and tell those people to fuck off because the generalizing and stupid idea that most suicides happen spontanously out of sheer cowardness is very hurtful and dismissive.
Absolutely, it makes a suicidal person feel even worse , some peoples life is unbearable and when they hear this it makes them feel even worse and feel more worthless
 
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solely.pain

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Feb 14, 2026
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I think that they have no clue what they're talking about and don't understand suicidal people at all.
 
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cursedlife

Student
Jun 28, 2024
187
Damn shame. The Muslims I know all seem so nice but yeah I guess that's just to my face.
suicide is second worst sin you can commit in Islam only topped by polygamy ,at least in my country suicide is stigmatized af , if you say you have suicidal thoughts you'll be isolated and called insane , from my pov christians seem nicer than Muslims when it comes to suicide
I think that they have no clue what they're talking about and don't understand suicidal people at all.
most people are normies they don't understand the psychological pain suicidal people experience, when they hear someone ctbed they can't comprehend that the pain in this group of people is way worse than death will ever be
I think that they have no clue what they're talking about and don't understand suicidal people at all.
most people are normies they don't understand the psychological pain suicidal people experience, when they hear someone ctbed they can't comprehend that the pain in this group of people is way worse than death will ever be
 
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pagalparinda

Member
Sep 5, 2026
46
I live in a Muslim country and I'm secretly an agnostic and I confirm Muslim do this too , they make me feel worse and I can't express my opinion without getting isolated or even worse imprisoned, one of the reasons am thinking of ending my life
Believing my post is not going to ignite any such religion arguments here, whatever be the religion, Humans every where are same. No exception at all based on religion. It is to some extent true that a particular religion is more radical and to some extent I also believe it, but the thing no religion is saint anymore. None such thing exists. Hinduism from which I belong, empowers us to even question God. It is our right which can never be taken away. But today almost all have forgone this. His fear is more powerful than his trust.
 
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Rounwytha

Member
Sep 13, 2026
5
Those who have seen the waters below the Golden Gate Bridge and still decided to jump, have more courage than any of these evangelical faggots combined
 
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TransientEternal

Experienced
Sep 24, 2023
240
Pure ignorance. Just regurgitating what they've heard from others. They do not understand how strong survival instinct is.