What do you self medicate with?

[kappa]

What unhealthy ways do you self medicate to get through the day?

Smoking weed and vaping just isn't enough for me. I prefer benzos and staying on on them. Muscle relaxers were great and gave me the best sleep of my life but I cannot get any.

I'm alcohol intolerant.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Binging/purging is a form of self medication for me at the moment

Muscle relaxers mixed with benzos if I want to sleep.

Booze.

 

[not_a_robot]

If I had cheap easy access to other drugs I would experiment more, but weed is the only thing I use consistently.

 

[Lush_nova]

Alcohol, not loads, just enough that and listening to music

 

[mathieu]

Benzos here to self-medicate my generalised anxiety disorder.

 

[Jynxer]

What unhealthy ways do you self medicate to get through the day?

Smoking weed and vaping just isn't enough for me. I prefer benzos and staying on on them. Muscle relaxers were great and gave me the best sleep of my life but I cannot get any.

I'm alcohol intolerant.

I drink 8-10 beers on most nights, and smoke 2-3 grams of pot every day. Thankfully I've been off the hard drugs for a bunch of years. I do like those benzos for sleep, but became too hooked on them for my liking. I just stopped asking my dr for them. So, I stick to the alcohol and weed.

 

[Lush_nova]

Alcohol, not loads, just enough that and listening to music

I take this back, 1145am and I'm just ever so slightly down half a litre of. A bottle rum....kinda screwed right now

 

[LogicalConclusion]

Well, I'm prescribed a lot of psych meds so I medicate in a prescribed sense, but I am on several controlled substances and I save them up to use in times of desperation (not loads, just 2 or 3) and I have been drinking with them fairly often, too. I also smoke a lot of weed. Trying to conserve resources as best I can, but I just can't deal with being sober, I do not feel okay. My whole world has been crashing down around me for ages and I'm just kinda here getting fucked up and going

Spoiler: This is fine

 

[LaBrava]

Vodka

 

[Dead beat dad]

Exercise used to be a huge for of medication for me, but now it is not possible.
I love booze and drugs and would consume them in huge quantities but am opposed to them on the grounds of ethics.
So nothing really... Just staring in to the void and wrestling demons.
Happy fucking days

 

[Qbert]

High abv beer

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Only caffeine, nicotine and carbohydrates these days. I'm pretty wholesome in my old age.

 

[Scribble Fan]

Maltesers, Coca-Cola, Oreos.

And somehow I lost weight..? Huh, I guess eating minuscule amounts of crap counts as a diet now.

 

[tomz323]

Weed and Scotch, weed is a good one. ;)

 

[Midnight]

I'm on an SSRI .. does little to nothing except for maybe some anxiety relief. I wanted to start drinking but my body just hates it... Can't keep the booze down long enough. I don't do drugs and never smoked. So guess you could say i'm a wreck (mentally) day in day out.

I enjoy sleeping as little as possible when i'm in bad mood because it numbs me but i don't think that counts. If anything it makes my mood even worse .. this may sound strange to some but whenever i'm really in a bad way i just want to make it even worse to get ever closer to catching that damned bus.

 

[inconsequential]

Cannabis.

 

[NemoZeno]

Shitty whisky and tequila.

 

[The Hunter]

If I had cheap easy access to other drugs I would experiment more, but weed is the only thing I use consistently.

I would like to try marijuana, but I read that it can trigger a psychotic episode, and I am naturally almost psychotic, so I have this fear.
I'm just in benzos and alcohol

 

[lululoo]

In the short-term, food. In the long-term, controlling my eating and being thin.

 

[kappa]

I would like to try marijuana, but I read that it can trigger a psychotic episode, and I am naturally almost psychotic, so I have this fear.
I'm just in benzos and alcohol

If you have dispensaries where you live, you could try CBD only strains. If that goes ok they have ones that had high CBD and low THC strains. If you try smoking the 20 plus percent thc weed first time, probably a guaranteed bad time. Also, don't try edibles unless you have a good or high tolerance.

 

[Tabbyql]

Food binges

 

[SweetHomeNirvana]

Overly excessive amounts of caffeine. I've had a time where I'd consume 2-3 grams daily which equals roughly ~30 cans of Red Bull.

 

[Imgonnadie]

weed is fun at first but it quickly becomes an all day thing and I can't stop if I have it. my life is too devoid of anything fulfilling not to constantly be high. Just used the last half ounce I bought for a rip off (like $130) in one week

 

[Final Escape]

Caffeine, cannabis, edibles, dissociate and waste time.

 

[TimeToDie]

Muscle relaxers were great and gave me the best sleep of my life but I cannot get any.

Soma I assume? Thought that was the easiest med to find online.

I'm screwed as nothing seems to work for me. Earlier this year I stopped drinking because alcohol no longer relaxed me. Benzos are useless, not working at any dosage no matter how ridiculously high. Pot fails to work for me as well.

 

[Severen]

A bunch of medication aka drugs and stuff like this.

 

[Kjo]

Sleeping pills...
I also have prescription Ketamine that usually
helps.

 

[mathieu]

Soma I assume? Thought that was the easiest med to find online.

I'm screwed as nothing seems to work for me. Earlier this year I stopped drinking because alcohol no longer relaxed me. Benzos are useless, not working at any dosage no matter how ridiculously high. Pot fails to work for me as well.

I think you must have meant to quote somewhere else. I haven''t ever taken muscle relaxers. I take benzos. Xanax at the moment. They make things more bearable. I take 2mg Xanax at a time, maybe twice a day.

 

[kappa]

Soma I assume? Thought that was the easiest med to find online.

I'm screwed as nothing seems to work for me. Earlier this year I stopped drinking because alcohol no longer relaxed me. Benzos are useless, not working at any dosage no matter how ridiculously high. Pot fails to work for me as well.

I've never tried getting meds online. It was called Flexeral I believe.

What are your large doses of benzos? I know if I take more than 4-5 at once bad shit happens.

 

[TimeToDie]

I've never tried getting meds online. It was called Flexeral I believe.

I've never tried Flexeral. I wanted to try Soma as it's metabolized into meprobamate, which was a wildly popular tranquilizer back in the 1950s. The reason I wanted to try meprobamate was because I have disabling anxiety which benzos entirely fail to control.

What are your large doses of benzos? I know if I take more than 4-5 at once bad shit happens.

Back in 2003 I started on Valium 40 mg/day and that did nothing. My GP wan't brave enough to go higher than that so I found a psychiatrist who absolutely loved benzos. He put me on 10 mg of Xanax daily (equal to 100 mg Valium) from 2003 to 2012. Even that dose didn't really do anything, though I kept taking it as I hoped it did at least a little something. All Xanax did was kill my sex drive (back when I actually had one -- I don't any more despite years off benzos). In an effort to see if Xanax does anything at any dose I once tried 120 mg in a single dose. I don't recall if it actually calmed me any, but I got a 5 hour nap from which I awoke feeling the same as usual. I've also tried Ativan, Klonopin, Onfi (bet you never heard of that one), clonazolam and a number of other research chemical benzos.

Since this is a suicide forum, I probably need to point out that 120 mg Xanax was not some half-assed suicide attempt. I am fully aware that the LD50 is something ridiculously high like 900 mg/kg in rats such that you'd need many thousands of bars to produce death. It's so exceptionally unlikely that I'm not even aware of a single documented case of death by Xanax alone, though it certainly does pop up often enough in deaths (with a pharmacy of other drugs, especially alcohol & opioids).