What do you say?

[hmnow]

How do you frame your own choice to CTB?

 

[whywere]

Like I have always said and this is in stainless steel lined concrete, with 24/7 chronic pain, if and when quantity overtakes quality of life, then decisions will be made.

Walter

 

[PaperAK]

"I don't want to be here anymore"

I don't really want to die, but I guess it'll be nice to die if it means I don't need to be here anymore

 

[mustard tiger]

I don't want to die, I want to be dead.

 

[GodzillasBiggestFan]

i've said all three really. i suppose in truth it is just a want of mine. but it feels like a need or even a predetermined thing i have no control over.

 

[somethingisntreal]

Most days it's "i want to die" but sometimes it becomes "I need to die"

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's between 'I want' and 'I need' to die. It's both my preference to but then- it does also feel like a need sometimes- in order to get away from all the never ending chores required to sustain life plus- all the pain life causes for us.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me I'll always want to be permanently free from this torturous, dreadful and cruel existence no matter what, all I want is the peace of non-existence where this deeply undesirable and torturous existence that I just always saw as the most terrible mistake is finally all gone and forgotten.

For me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the dreadful suffering and torture of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's such terrible extreme cruelty how there's all this suffering and torture in existing and I just find it so terrible how this existence was imposed at all causing all this dreadful suffering as a result.

It's just so horrific to me how the torture of existing can continue for decades longer just for one to face the agony of old age, existence to me really is an abomination and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for the peace of non-existence, no matter what I'll just always see it as the most torturous, dreadful burden to suffer in this existence, existence to me is just so evil, all that existence ever does is just torture existing beings.

 

[Unsure and Useless]

For me, it's I don't want to die. However, this world is so fucked that I need to die, and I've already fucked my life over so much that I have to die

 

[yuri77]

I have to die if I want to stop the suffering

 

[tiokapaws]

I tell people who question that I "want to die" but the want factor varies, to be honest. When I'm not in a depressive state I don't want to die. But in every stage of my life, happy or sad, I know that I "have to". Like when people have a pet that's unwell and they don't want to put it down but have to in order to end it's suffering.

My life is a ugly collection of paths leading to various dead-ends. The only road that'll lead me to anywhere else is death. Perhaps, if my life had been different, I do think that I wouldn't have to die, but it's been set out since my birth. I've got no choice.

 

[Dinozauria]

I think its a mix of "I want to die" and "I have to die" for me

 

[bakenohana]

I need to die, thats my only true goal in life. everyday it hurts me realising i didn't die in my sleep and its a struggle to make it through just a day without ctbing. at the same time I also have to die