What do you guys do when you're crying and fed up but there's no one around?

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I feel like I wanna bash my face in. Tears keep streaming down my cheeks and now my face is wet. It's hard to breathe. I want to ctb but I feel like I'm rushing it, and will ctb at a better time. I wish I had Nembutal to take and just fall asleep with and die. Nobody understands my pain, it's really deep. Years of neglect, rejection and loneliness does it for me. On top of that I'm a NEET and I have never gotten anywhere in life. I have nothing going for me. I'm trapped being autistic and bipolar.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I can almost feel your pain reading your post. I don't know what to say. I haven't cried in a very long time, I can't anymore, it's like a desert. I'm sorry for how awful this sounds, but, enjoy being able to cry. I know that doesn't help. I'm jealous of NEETs in a way. I know it's unfair to say but hopefully it's not hurtful for me to say, that having a job, education, family, etc, are all external and often bring even more pain. If anything I said here was hurtful or just plain stupid, please know I didn't mean it like that. I'm old and probably out of touch.